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Poetry

It’s windy

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Outside and like my life I would nice for it to just blow some things around.

Until maybe it would be in better shape then it is right now.

The things that are set in stone will be blown around and for once I would welcome a mess in my life.

Something to do for right now it feels like I’m moving around in circles and nothing seems right to me.

I’m running out of steam but I have to keep moving even when I just want to scream enough is enough.

But I know my moment in the wind won’t last and so back to the same old things in the hope of finding the right path for me.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

What do

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You see when you look at me?

I kinda want to know

But then again not really.

I realize some people don’t think an plan through as much as I would.

Or how greed can cloud your mind until your faced with a option you didn’t see coming.

I wish the situation was different and well it had all worked out better but now it’s really about to get real and how it will end is not even clear to me.


Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

You came

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Back and yes it was a surprise

For I just thought about reaching out to you.

Then there you were standing tall with a smile on your face, begging me to step closer.

And I knew I couldn’t stay mad and so forgiveness was given and the distance between us was closed.

Oh how nice it has been to see you again it’s like everything has fade and in the moment it’s my favorite time of year again.

It’s like nothing changed and those first moments we spent together came right back.

Today would forever be great because of our reconnection no matter how crazy it got.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

Like this

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fog it is hard for me to see the outcome of things right now.

But I feel things will look up but it will take time.

And I will just have to find some patience and accept that things will be better and different.

For I want change and sometimes I want it to happen as quick as I wish the fog in my life would fade away but it’s staying until I guess I’m ready to do what needs to be done.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

Maybe I’ve

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 Been fooling myself as I work hard to keep

this friendship going.

Maybe if I let it go if it was meant to be it will work out.

For this doubt and trying to figure out what to say is just not working and I feel like something needs to be said.

But, I don’t know how you will take it and so I sit here erasing more than hitting the send button.

Maybe it’s too late and now I wonder how to be me and yet still want what everyone else has.

I know being by myself sometimes is nice and so I get lost in my own world and every now and then.

I come out and check on everyone else and then I wonder if I had just been outgoing the whole time would this doubt be bothering me now.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

I won’t

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Stop until I succeed at these tasks that keep coming up.

I know there is so much I need to know and yet here I am feeling as if all I want to do is go back to bed.

My body doesn’t want to get up and move around and do the things the elk wake me up.

It wants to forget this task and sleep as if we’re about to hibernate for the winter.

For the cold days and nights are just getting too cold.

Oh how I wish I could be wrapped in a warm blanket and maybe just skip today and show up tomorrow.

For I’m sure it will be a much better day for me and my energy will come back by then.

But life does not wait for me to get more sleep or more energy or hope when we’ll all I need is all three right now.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

Was I

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to tired to see your true colors all this time.

You may be small but I can feel the many knifes your trying to throw my way.

No respect just  trying to take and take.

You want so much but right now it’s really just a struggle to get it all down in the end.

Things are becoming more clear as the problems that raise up are not mine anymore.

The peace even within the Storm is better than the storm that just doesn’t go away for good.

No direction and no hope inside for the one who could and should help won’t step up unless they have too and in the end it all comes down to the same results.

You want to complain about the ones who came before you because you think so highly of yourself but at the end of the day we carry you not the other way around.

When the mess hits the fan it is mostly because of you and you then fight back as if you have the right too.

This circle will come to an end and right now I don’t care to watch the show for I know how it ends.

 

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

To think

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of warmer days and to feel the warm always on me.

So cold outside and inside is making these days very hard.

As I grow cold very quickly and time doesn’t go by as fast as I would like.

I know warmer days are coming and I am really looking forward to so much more.

Today is cold now but soon it will warm up and nothing will be in my way as I begin to explore what this world has to offer me again.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

Am I

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 To wait for you

To realize this could have gone down so much better if you had just stood there and kept your mouth shut.

I thought I had seen it all but here you came showing what ignorance really is and if you thought you won.

Then I know you really are crazy and the one who will judge you and handle you in the end is the strongest person I know.

Because you are a lot and I don’t have time or the patients to put up with the devil today.

I stood in silence while you acted a fool and the shaking was the anger so ready to come out and take you down for you weren’t a man today.

So no I won’t wait for you to get your head out of your ass I will just walk away and let you sit there in your ignorance and we will see who will be begging in the end.

Because I won’t back down anymore I am the brick wall you will not ever get through and in the end you will just give up.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

I tried

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to wait for you a little longer.

But, the wind started to pick up and I had to leave and as I walked away I tried to text you again.

But still, no reply and I just don’t understand how you didn’t pick up as today was the day you choose to meet up with me.

Now not only was my time wasted out in the cold it just sucks for any day now I will be leaving and this reality we had together is slowly coming to end.

I just hope you reach out to me before I get even farther away from you and the time it will take for me to come back will be too long.

That even you may move on and forget about me and I’m hoping you don’t forget me and that our future will still be something that can happen and not just some fantasy we came up with one long cold night.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

A moment

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with just you and me before it gets cold again.

Lots of candles were lite and petals on the table.

As we came together in hopes of a good night for our day was probably not so good.

But once together again and nothing matters as all the bad moments fade away even if it’s just for tonight.

Everything is quiet and the peace is all around as we stare into each other eyes and have a great night.

And when it’s all said and done we are all just glad to enjoy each other time and hope that the next night out for us won’t be a long time away.

 

 

 

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
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Poetry

To feel

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the light shining down on me repeatedly today

as I feel the love and blessing coming this way this year.

Day one has started off just right and I know and feel the next few days will be just as great.

But, I  won’t plan too far ahead for I know there are going to be a couple surprises this year that not even I will see coming.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
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Merry Christmas

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 To everyone or happy Hanukkah.

I hope we all enjoy this day even if some of you have to work.

Just be grateful you get to see the day and share the joy with whoever you can.

Enjoy the time with family and friends and enjoy the little moments that will pop up through out the day.

And just know that even if you didn’t get what you wanted, I’m sure you got what you needed and if not don’t wait around for someone else to give it to you.

Because in just a few days it will be a new year and I hope you have plans to make things different but for now have a merry Christmas and I hope every moment of your day is blessed and full of love and laughter.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2019 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

At the

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top looking down

and for the first time

I don’t want to go back.

I don’t want to deal with the problems I didn’t cause and the mess that isn’t being  solved now or ever.

The attitude that thinks it is always right

but it’s way out of line most of the time.

The coldness that only begins to come in as the doors reopened

and the realization that nothing is the same and no one has the patients to stand by and just support.

The stress is too much and better days will come they say but at this point it all feels like lies to me.

 

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2019 By Deirdre Stokes