Am I living

A lie 

when I smile on the outside 

but I want to cry in the inside.

Am I giving up when I don’t text you no more but then wait a minute did you even notice I stopped months go?

I know it’s not right to keep all bottled up inside.

But who should I tell if you’re not the one listening?

No one will understand the message meant for you but you!

But you’re not an option and so what do I do when I’m stuck and answers won’t come.

Do I hide or stand out in plain sight and let whoever see the pain leaking out for first time in their eyes.

Or do I pretend to be  some more to be someone I used to be or maybe never was. 

Maybe you will figure it out but maybe you won’t and it won’t matter because the who I used to be to you is gone.

So I hope it won’t be hard for you to forget me, for I’m already gone.

Written By:Deirdre Stokes