Month: January 2023

Is this place so beautiful and peaceful?

When everything else feels like all the color is gone and life becomes dull.

For the ones not doing great, they steal from the ones they see smiling and being blessed in the hope that their life will turn great from stealing someone else’s happiness.

But they soon realize they can steal material things, but they can’t take the fire inside of her. All they can do is think they won this round.

And in the next round, they will lose. Because my happiness and peace of mind are not for sale, I won’t resent you, but I won’t let you walk all over me, either. I have things to do, and it’s time to get focused again.

This place may change, but I won’t let it get in my way or steal from me again.

No more accepting lies or excuses that are not true.

It’s time to take back my power and own this life I live for. I can see beautiful places and still have a beautiful inner peace.

Even when the world is full of lies and other things that try to waste time and energy.

It’s time to think wise and make an intelligent decision, so we don’t all get played.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes Copyrighted ©️ 2023 By Deirdre Stokes

I can relax and not have a care in the world.

As I sit here and listen to your voice, I am at peace, and the feeling of hiding away for the next few days feels so strong.

As I regroup from spending so much with others and not enough time with myself and now it’s time to empty the tank of pretending and stress and fill it back up with love and rest.

In the hope that everything else will fall into place again, I know it won’t happen overnight, but one-night things will finally look up.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes Copyrighted ©️ 2023 By Deirdre Stokes

They say it’s been a long night, and only time will tell if things will improve.

Oh, how do you wonder how much longer you can stay awake as your eyes begin to close?

You wonder what you will dream about, as reality has been a nightmare.

You want to sleep until you don’t have to worry no more.

No matter what, the same stuff keeps happening, and he chooses not to change; in the end, he still doesn’t care.

You had hopes you could escape, but it will all fall on your shoulders soon enough.

And you will never say everything because you learned that the ones who play the victim will always blame you, anyway.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes Copyrighted ©️ 2023 By Deirdre Stokes

Of pretending just not to hurt your feelings.

Why must I smile so that you can keep playing the victim?

When do I get to be the real me?

Maybe one day, but lately, I’m tired of dealing with your crap, and I want to be free again.

Oh well, I guess I’ll stay tired until I lose my identity altogether and become someone trying to fit in all the time.

Then who will I be and will you even know the real me than?

Because I’ll tell you losing who I am will be my most significant loss, and yours too.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes Copyrighted ©️ 2023 By Deirdre Stokes

I could see you again

But life isn’t fair, and unfortunately, you have gone

And I live without you, and even though I miss how much you cared, I know that love I carry with me each day.

And as my thoughts go to you, I always want to cry, but I know you want me to be happy.

So today, I will smile for you, and I will love those close to me so strongly that it will be like I’m giving them a piece of you.

Your love was so pure, and I’m so lucky to have experienced it and to be around to know how much you cared.

I know it will be a little hard to think about you, but I won’t ever forget you, and I know you were just as stubborn as I can be and funny too.

So today, I live for me and you, and when I smile, I will smile for both of us!

Today will be a good day, and that’s all I know and hope for.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes Copyrighted ©️ 2023 By Deirdre Stokes

No time has placed by, and now here we are again.

I don’t want to start anything, but it’s like, why come back?

Why look me in the eye and lie again and then say this time will be different?

What is it you want me to forget and forgive?

How many lies do I have to accept this year for you to get it through your head that it’s not okay?

But don’t worry; you broke the trust I had in you a long time ago. So now the lies you think I believe are just for your peace of mind.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes Copyrighted ©️ 2023 By Deirdre Stokes

Not for me

But what is for me

I feel like I am blindly going down two paths in life.

And neither one is clear to me, even though one makes me happier.

Each turn is still unknown, and I’m still waiting for it to kick me out and send me on my way.

But for now, I’ll accept these paths are not for me and hope and pray the right one opens up soon.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes Copyrighted ©️ 2023 By Deirdre Stokes