Tag: sadness

Poetry

Don’t make

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me choose what I need to do right now.

For even though I feel like I have the answer it’s clear that I don’t.

What I want to happen may not happen as the darkness that surrounds my life swallows me whole once again.

The feeling of knowing what I am supposed to do vanish with the light that was protecting from the pain and sadness that overcomes me right now.

The path that I walk on is not clear to see and I feel like I’ve been walking in circles lately and no matter how hard I try there is no relief in this journey I am trying to go on.

The beating of my heart is all that carries me forward but the silence feels so not right as I push away the noise and lay down and hope when I wake up tomorrow things will be better and brighter on this side of my life.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

Daily Prompt: Recreate

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I want so bad now to recreate all the times we spent together but I know there is no going back.

As you leave me here to fight another day on this earth, I know that you are at peace in heaven.

I know that I am not the only sad one to see you go and it would be selfish of me to want you to be here still when you’re in a better place now.

I’d take all the rough days of my life just to be with you right now and see your face and feel your embrace.

But, I can’t go back to past and the tears I cry are for the moments I had with you and I love you and I know this day didn’t go very great.

But, hearing you were gone was a wake up call.

For no matter how busy and rude people are and will be, you were my little light that shined bright and you loved me so much and now I feel so sad.

I want to recreate the last moment I saw you and make it last for a lifetime but as I close my eyes tonight I know my thoughts will be about you.

I will carry my memories of you with me all the time and even though I wish the world would stop just for me to have enough time to be in my thoughts.

I know the world will carry on with or without me and I know I will build my wall back up and life will go on.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Daily Prompt: Recreate

Poetry

It just

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slipped out my mouth and the results felt

like a car crash.

everything around me felt like slow motion

then the impact was so rough.

As you were thrown around by my words

cutting right into your heart.

And even though I was hurting to the look on your face

just haunts me and even though I know I was wrong.

I just can’t find the words to apologies to you right now because

I don’t know if I’m worthy of coming back into your life right now or ever.

Maybe the way I handled things was not the right way to do it but I can’t go back and take it back.

The words somewhat thought out but not yet processed the way they should have been now has me second guessing everything.

Maybe, I don’t deserve your forgiveness and maybe this will be the lesson that sticks in my mind and my heart.

And maybe I’ll finally stop making the same mistakes and just keep it to myself until I’m truly sure it’s what I want to say to you.

Because, my last words should be so true that I don’t regret a single word at the end of the day.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Poetry

The end

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Never seemed so sad

but I can’t keep pretending anymore.

I have to let go before I not only  ruin  myself

but I ruin you too.

I don’t want the negative energy that has capture me

turn you against me.

So the best I can do is walk away and know that maybe the life and the people

I thought were suppose to be in it.

Are no longer around.

And maybe the journey on this narrow path was just too small road for all us to walk side by side down together anymore.

The present may just be the end to the things

that seem to be okay left alone but in truth

everything was crumbling and falling apart

right in my front of my face the whole time.

And now the end is so bitter-sweet with no words left to be said

but a lot of tears pouring down my face and nothing but my

own hands to wipe them away.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

A friendship left behind!

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You sit alone next to our favorite tree

The tree we always met at to talk about our day.

I want to run up to you and take the sadness away

But you pushed me away last week and now I’m invisible

To you.

You turn as if you sense someone watching you

And you stare right at me and that sadness turns into anger

True resentment is written on your face.

And I’m confused for I did not do anything for this hate to be so strong  in you.

Can’t you see the love, the confused look in my eyes

And before I know what is happening I’m running to you depending you tell me what’s wrong.

Then I wake and realize it was just a nightmare to the ending I never got.

Because,  that day so long ago I left you all alone and everything else.

If only I could explain it now to you, then maybe you would understand and would forgive me.

However like past I’m history to you, an faded memory of our childhood.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes