Tag: saturday

I to allow myself to get carried away because I want to please everyone but myself.

Regret of staying in this place has me trying to explain why I don’t want to be more than what I’ve been given.

I don’t want to be bitter or questioning

What has been an great experience at first  but, now it’s an nightmare I can’t seem to shake.

No matter how hard I want to run I just can’t seem to get far even though that’s all I want to do.

Is get away and not ever speak of this place again for it’s not worth it.

So much stress and drama from such a small place.

It traps you if you get to close and even though you know better it still finds a way to draw you in.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2019 By Deirdre Stokes

falling and not in a good way.

The answers to help me get back up again just aren’t coming.

I know that looking on the bright side would strongly help me right now. 

But the frustration is so thick I can’t cut it with a knife if I wanted too at this point. 

I know that things are rough and my break in this storm will come but lately that just seems like such a long way away. 

I know I want to hold on until it comes but I am getting so tired that I just don’t want to hold on to something that just doesn’t seem to be happening anytime soon. 

I just want to stay in my bed and not deal with the things that seem to just keep rocking my world that I can’t seem to pick up all the pieces every time it falls apart. 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2015 By Deirdre Stokes

do I  know when it’s the right time to go when time is running out and the place is falling apart.

No right decisions have been made and so the struggle continues all over again and no matter what things have been changed.

You do your best just for the one in charge to knock you back down and have you feeling like no matter how hard you work they will take the credit.

But, when things fall apart they are no where to be found and that it is not their fault that things are falling apart.

This thing called life is becoming too much of a movie that has no pause and seems to be fast-forwarding way too much during the time when things need to slow down and be solved.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2015 By Deirdre Stokes

Red so hot burns around you as you become so angry

Fire so blue around me as I keep my cool and your words don’t affect me.

So much red around you and sometimes it’s not even worth it for you to be that mad or for you to raise your voice.

I will be the cool and relaxed and understanding fire any day as long as it means I see the light in a different way and my light shines for good.

I don’t want to burn down the things around me I want to help them grow and change the way things are.

I want to guide people around and to not feel like I am making things worst but know I am making things better and brighter.

For my fire burns inside and I keep it in check for being angry never got me anywhere that was good.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2015 By Deirdre Stokes

We suppose to panic when things don’t go our way or are we to see what can come of this situation. 

As everything around us is continually on the move and so how we feel like we are not on the move and we are just standing still for what and for who.

Always on the move and now all I want to do is get a move on it because I just can’t take being too close to the thing that makes my skin crawl every time I am near it.

So much done and yet you are never satisfied with anything and so the words of whining and bullshit fly from your mouth as if you know what you are talking about.

Making messes are what you are best at and in the end you want someone to praise you and kiss you butt.

But, the world is too busy for that and so I tone you out and I quiet down as I get to work and do what I have to do for me and soon you and your words fade from my memory as I move forward to something greater and meaningful.  

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2015 By Deirdre Stokes

good to see you with a hug here and a handshake there.

But spoken words are said and then it’s like everything just fades into the background.

It’s like did you mean what you said or was it just something to say.

All this is running through my mind and I don’t want to overthink this situation.

Just because you changed upon how you reply to someone now.

Like everything else, I am going to let it go and move on and I hope you come to your senses.

And the right words and response will flow from your mouth to your phone.

And I’ll try to be around to receive it and respond before something else comes up.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2015 By Deirdre Stokes

when I feel like there is nothing left for us to say to one another.

I still reach out and say hello even when I don’t feel like dealing with people.

You used to have so much to say and now it feels like we’re always pulling at straws to keep the conversation going.

I know things are different but in a way, I am still missing you.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Copyright ©️ 2015 By Deirdre Stokes