Tag: truth

Poetry

Overwhelmed

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 And overworked

No where to run as everything gets to busy.

And in the storm stands you unmoved and unbothered.

I want to fight you and put you in your place and I know that will not happen.

For I know at the end fighting with you won’t be worth it.

I’m not angry enough to get to your level and I know there is so much more for me now and forever.

But, for you I don’t think you care and you are too comfortable in the situation.

And you think life will always be this great but is it more for show.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2019 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

That feeling

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Is growing strongly

Inside of me and yet.

I still don’t know what to do about it but it leaves me feeling somewhat empty.

I don’t know what it will take to fill this

hole up.

But it comes and goes as I realize I have a content life for the most part.

But I know there is so much more for me to do and yet the only in my way right now is myself.

Maybe soon I will step out of my own way and make room for something new.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2019 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

So many

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 Want the best for me

And I hope it does get better.

For I want the outcome for me and to show them I finally got away.

Like a cold morning I come into your life and by noon I quickly disappear again.

From cold to hot the moods of me change as the stress seems to continue on a path of no endings.

Well it ends just not on a good note and the results won’t be in my favor.

 

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2019 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

Blinded

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 by the pain and frustration

That I don’t see the change that is happening around me.

You see I’ve been in the dark with just a flashlight of light and when that window of light shined down on me.

I didn’t notice something had awakened in me.

For it felt no different than the Tuesday before.

But, somehow the energy I was feeling felt so pure and powerful.

It wasn’t until I saw his eyes what I had been trying to see in my owns.

The look was light itself shining back at me with no darkness around and as he stepped cross to me.

I swear I saw an angel in Him and what to come next was nothing short of a miracle.

 

 

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2019 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

The

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Moment of waiting for so long has finally come.

The count down to not being stressed out has come.

No need to rush around and worry about being late or too early.

No need to lose your mind over getting things done in a certain time frame.

No need to schedule anything just let whatever going to happen next come true.

The need to do more than you are capable of doing isn’t going to happen this day or tomorrow.

So relax and sleep in and just be carefree for once and let everything else blow away like the leaves in the fall.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2015 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

TIRED

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of rolling the dice

and paying the price

for other people  life choices I didn’t really sign up for.

I am not your backup plan because if I am I will let you down

everytime.

For I owe you nothing and some day you will realize that when I am gone.

But, for now I will allow you to be naïve and maybe one day you will truly open your eyes up and see how much the better the world would be if you got your act together.

If ignorance had a picture of a sample of the word in the dictionary there you would be with a smile on your face trying to fool the world.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2015 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

To the

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balance I so need in my life right now.

Will I ever find the proper balance between life and work and everything else in-between.

Or will I continue to live in this area that feels like I’m sinking more than I would like.

I want to do better and to be able to sit still and just breath in and out without breaking my focus.

I want to open my eyes when it’s all done and feel refreshed again and not feel more stressed than I was before I walked out of the space that held me in place in the first place.

The possibility of peace and quiet seems like a dream right now but, I know that things will get better for me it just may take some time.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Copyright ©️ 2015 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

I used

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to think I knew what I was going to do next.

But, clearly I was wrong and now I’m at a crossroad and I don’t know if I should go left or right?

I know that right now I need to take my time and ask for some guidance.

For his light will guide the way for me if I stop trying to run away faster than his answer can be delivered to me.

I know my patience is thin this days because things have truly fallen apart.

I’ve taken on too much responsibility  because I didn’t realize it was just a crack in the door.

That allowed them to just bust in and put more on me and then smile to themselves for the stress is off of their shoulders.

But, to ask for help is likely not happening as no one wants to do the dirty work anymore.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Copyright ©️ 2015 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

Your

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pushing so much it feels like I’m about to break and I know you don’t care for it seems like nothing is ever going to please you.

You want everything to get done but there is only so much a person can do and now the fun feels more like resentment.

And the days are long and  now there is not a moment in the day that I’m really enjoying myself because I just want to escape and get away.

The count down to finding a way out of this maze is on for I am ready to live with the treasure I deserve than the one I thought I wanted but don’t really need it.

But there are no words other than good bye and I won’t be coming back that are going to come out my mouth and for that I know the path will change for me and to where I don’t know.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Copyright ©️ 2015 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

It’s

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time to take back what is mine and fight to do better.

I won’t settle or wait around for things to just fall into my lap.

I will not be your yes lady and wonder why later I even agreed to this.

I will appreciate the moments given to me and honor all the little things for things could be worst.

The struggle is gone and the hope to move forward is on and looking back at my darkest moments will get me nowhere fast.

Its time to embrace the light and focus on the things that really matter in my life.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Copyright ©️ 2015 By Deirdre Stokes

 

Poetry

The

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struggle to find the right words to say is eating me alive.

There isn’t a moment when my mind and hands are not moving.

I know that there is so much more for me to learn and the struggle to focus on it all is coming in so strong.

As one part of me just wants to block everything out and the other half wants to feel everything that is happening so I can get through them and process all that has happened.

So everyday is a battle inside myself to just find that little moment of peace and not stress myself out about all that is happening around me that is out of my control.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Copyright ©️ 2015 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

Weak

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I feel it in my bones as I stand here being in the one place I rather not be.

Faking a smile and trying to be okay when I feel nothing but okay in this moment.

I want to do nothing but scream and the truth is no matter how much I say my frustration.

Nothing gets better and so I say nothing at all because what I have to say doesn’t seem to matter.

I am just another body even though I do good work and a lot of people see that at the end of the day they can push someone to be like me.

So what makes me any special if I can be replaced in a blank of an eye.

There will be lots of denial and lies but the end results will always be the same and with that is it worth dealing with.

An question I think I already know the answer too but, yet I am still around losing my mind all over again as if I am stuck in a loop and living my last days on earth in hell the place I wouldn’t wish on anyone.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Copyright ©️ 2015 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

A

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leader you think you are

but, yet as I look around and see the ones fighting this battle with me.

I know you are not one of them as you stand on the sidelines pretending to be involved.

And when we are receiving praises you are the first one to say thanks as if you helped out in any way.

So look me in the eye and tell me who you think did all the hard work at the end of the day.

For I know my team and you are not a real member and the leader well we don’t need one for we work together to get it done.

We are one and the relieve we feel when seeing each other comes from knowing you are no help and we will always be in it together even when our paths go different ways in the end.

I will thank you for bringing one more good person into my life but I won’t thank you for the struggle I live with when I’m around you.

This battle I’m tired of fighting but, the end to our story and path is not over yet so until then I will not show all my cards yet.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

In

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This moment things could change and the truth is I don’t mind.

For I know I’ve done my best but, the struggle is just a test that I’m okay facing today and tomorrow.

For I know after not giving up I will have grown a little more and learned something new about myself.

For being one with myself is more important than being focused on how someone else life is.

I’ve been so focus on cleaning up everyone’s else’s mess and in the middle of everything I’ve lost myself and the answer to what do I want isn’t as clear as before.

But, with no time to waste I have even less time to think about myself or those who truly matter as the demands around me force my hand again to do their bidding.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

Just

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letting it all out for what’s the point in keeping it all inside.

My story and maybe your story needs to be told but, only if you want too.

Sharing can be delightful and well sometimes scary

but, what’s the point in living if you don’t face the fear and jump in anyways.

When you think back to why something was important too you in the first place all the other things or other people opinions doesn’t matter anymore.

It’s just you writing and loving the way you pour it all out on paper or on a computer.

It all gets delivered the way you want it too, and the feeling of accomplishment is worth the time of  be confused  and unanswered questions.

Because, your fire is back and even if it doesn’t last long this time it will all work out in the end for you will recharge over and over again until the story is told and out there for everyone to love and grow from.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes