Tag: truth

Poetry

Let’s

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toast to the journey ahead of us and to the path were leaving behind

because without that path we wouldn’t be heading in the directions we are today.

Feeling of finally knowing where were supposed to be going and how great it feels too.

To know that this path is long but the destination will be so sweet and worth all the traveling and the time together.

This journey will shape us into who we know we have been holding back in the path.

It’s time to shine and no matter what dark places we may go to we will shine in them and we will walk away from them too with smiles and hope in our eyes and our hearts because our faith and love will carry us through it all.

No doubts and no regrets will be felt this time!

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

I

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Can’t say what is going on with me.

For I don’t even truly know but, I can’t just sit still because the world won’t wait for me.

To get it together and so I push on and use the pain and unknown feelings to push past it all to get by.

But, sooner or later it will all catch up to me and I really don’t know how to handle the strong winds that will blow through my life.

Turning up everything that I thought was leading to the right path.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

There

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was always just one way to you and as I drove away from it that day I knew it would hurt and the amount of time it would take to get away would be so long.

Days and nights I thought of that road and how much I should just go back and be on that road on my way to you.

But, then the truth of that gray sky day comes back to me and I realize that you said those words without me pushing you to them.

You were the one who told me I was bother out there and staying on this road would do nothing for me and in the end I would resent you.

But, the truth was I resent you for sending me away not from saying staying would be a mistake.

For all I needed was for you to believe we could make it and maybe we would have but regret and resentment wouldn’t have been apart of her past or present or future that is to come.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

Something

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we are taught to do

but don’t always practice because we see something that makes us judge one another.

And as you wonder should you give this person a chance for they are sometimes really nasty and unfair.

They play the victim too much and in the end you suffer for their lies and mistakes.

So you begin to question should I do what my God says for I am not in her shoes and it is best to love and accept that how she behaves shouldn’t change your beliefs.

To love her or him even when you know not what they may do next to you or the good people around you is the right thing to do and you should just let it be.

You are not the one she will answer to and you have said your words now just fall back and let God take the lead.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

I see

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how miserable you are and yet you continue to go down this route.

Stop and think about the things you have been blessed with.

And then go back to that moment when you felt not happy.

And I hope you realize the little things come and go but, it’s your attitude that’s the real problem.

Stop!

letting the things uncontrollable control your every move.

Like a predator stalking its prey, not one to give up when the chase has already taken to long.

Open your eyes and stop doing or saying things you don’t understand and start to learn them instead.

You want to go far than get up and do the hard work.

The end result won’t show up on its own!

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

I don’t

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want to be trapped in this space where no matter how long I run around.

Nothing seems to get done and I’m going mad and I don’t know  how much  longer I can keep falling and pulling myself back up just to survive with the same results all the time.

I no longer know who I am for I have become this robot doing what they expect me to do.

When all I want to do is run and not look back not even when they call my name .

There isn’t anything left to hold on to I’m at my breaking point and the light that shines in me is dying each and every day.

The need for change is so strong that I can’t keep sitting around waiting for it to come to me.

It’s time to move forward faster than I even thought possible because if I don’t the rope holding me up will snap.

Turning me from a swan to a monster no one can control.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

Like

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a bird you came into my life unexpectedly.

You turned everything that seemed so out of sync back in sync with me.

It was like the lost piece of me that I thought I’d never see again came back to me with upgrades I didn’t think I needed or truly wanted to accept.

For change has always been hard for me and being alone was something I had gotten used too.

But,you gave me hope and love again and I didn’t think I would ever have them again and trust that it would all workout again.

Things have been looking up even when so much is falling down all around me.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

Coming

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up from my darkness days 

only to find the light is shining so brightly. 

There isn’t a moment when I want to go back

for I feel so alive and there is no baggage that I have left to carry around. 

I feel light and at peace and this moment doesn’t feel like it will just last for a day 

but possibly for a lifetime this time around. 

But, I will try to be hopeful but not put all my eggs in one basket for it could all go back the way it is the next week. 

To hope that the day will be light and joyful and the darkness will stay inside and not come out and play again. 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

Don’t make

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me choose what I need to do right now.

For even though I feel like I have the answer it’s clear that I don’t.

What I want to happen may not happen as the darkness that surrounds my life swallows me whole once again.

The feeling of knowing what I am supposed to do vanish with the light that was protecting from the pain and sadness that overcomes me right now.

The path that I walk on is not clear to see and I feel like I’ve been walking in circles lately and no matter how hard I try there is no relief in this journey I am trying to go on.

The beating of my heart is all that carries me forward but the silence feels so not right as I push away the noise and lay down and hope when I wake up tomorrow things will be better and brighter on this side of my life.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

It’s getting

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late and I know that it’s time for me to go.

I know that you don’t want to me to know all that is going on

and at first I was fine with that but, how much longer do I have to wait.

Because the longer I wait the more I feel less in your life and more like an outsider looking in and only granted peeks here and there.

You feel I’m being to demanding and that your life is just too complicated and it’s best to not let me get too close.

I’m not the one you want to show your  vulnerable side  with and yet it breaks you if I try to walk away.

But, yet again I feel like I am invading your space and well maybe that would be true if it wasn’t you who let me in to begin with.

I will always love you but, this is not healthy or right for me to keep living this way that makes me feel like I’m putting apart of my life on hold for someone who will never pull me into a world that I deserve.

One with less hurt and pain and disappointment, one that feels like two people are working to make this right and now just one person trying to knock down everything you put up to keep them out.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

This

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wasn’t the way things were supposed to go.

Oh how I’ve heard that so many times lately but, yet here I am still here stuck in a place

that does not appreciate all that I do for it.

I try to be the bigger person and do all that I can do but there comes a time when you wonder what is wrong with mankind.

Every day and moment something happens that is out of our hands and yet there is no compassion for others because if you are the customer you have the right to treat me like a robot with no emotions.

Am I not human like you?

Don’t I have to pay bills like you too?

Yet I am here to listen to you when you have had a bad day and wishing that you feel better and I do that because I care not because I have too.

But, this is the way my life is and right now being the best isn’t something I ever desired and oh how I wish I could be invisible right now.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

I don’t

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know what tomorrow will hold for me.

I know that I am working hard for a higher goal than what is in front of me.

I know that there is more to life than what I do for a living and how hard I work.

Sometimes you try so hard to catch up and do what is right before the light is shined on you.

You try to prepare for every battle before it happens so that your mood and soul can be on the same page.

You fear not the unknown as you fear the things you know will bring you down.

You try to stay positive and do that right thing when it comes down to living the life you grew up in.

You get so frustrated with the things in life that you can’t seem to control but is left under your supervision.

You feel the risk of all the things that can and will come your way.

You realize that complaining won’t help you get to the place that you need to be and it’s time to change your way and to go back to a time where the nasty wasn’t all that you see.

You must remember that it is good out there but it is you who has to show some to shine it on others for putting out good vibes will out weight the bad that keep coming.

Your way and you don’t choose to ignore it but, instead, you respond with a nasty comment thinking things will balance out on its own in the end.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

Even

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though my body is tired and my spirit feels wore out

I made it through the day with what little strength I had left.

Feeling like I will have no time to rest and no time to catch my breath

as the load of work just seems to pile on like I am unlimited to have much

I can take on.

There is no words  to say right now as my body and mind are so gone that thinking is harder than before and everything just seems so slow and wrong.

The time isn’t going by that fast and you wonder where the relief will come because you can’t keep going on like this right now.

 

 

Written By : Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

Sitting

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Here not knowing how to feel or think.

As I blindly go through life not really seeing the beauty in it all anymore.

So dark I can’t tell morning from night anymore.

Hoping this experience changes and doesn’t last for much later.

Stumbling around knocking into everything well trying to get away from it all.

Nothing left to say as it all fades to black and things become  more unclear.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

Words

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want to come out and create something more because life is sometimes stressful.

And you want to escape into something just for a little while.

To forget all your troubles and focus on someone else or just to see some good in the world.

You  want to read or see something that doesn’t break your heart or make you so mad.

You want to stop and truly think about something other than what is going on in your life for once.

To get lost with a smile on your face and laughter that wants to come out instead of tears.

You want to feel strong again and not so weak from all the things in life that is mentally and physically holding you down.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes