Poetry

What am I fighting

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For as I stand still here  

and look at you on this cold morning

and I wonder if only I had walked away.

Would I be such a mess with so many thoughts

flying through my mind at lighten speed.

Nothing is clean and I can’t grasp one thought

for my brain is starting to hurt as I fall down

and try to find comfort in this all.

Too much to handle and so lay here and stare

at nothing ,and I wish if only I had stopped when

the one and only thought popped into my mind

that night.

That changed everything and now here

I am pouring it all out and you stand there frozen

in time with nothing to say, and what good does that do

for me.

So I try to scream loud enough for you to wake up from this

state.

But instead all I do is break you apart into tiny little pieces as

you explode right in front of me and every piece of you I loved

comes flying at me.

And then it all becomes too much and I combust

Into tiny pieces and I am no more, like you.

But, it’s all just a dream and soon I will wake from this

nightmare of my truth, my fears.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

(Inspired while listening to: If only sung by Dove Cameron on the descendants soundtrack)

 

 

Published by mywords2228

Love writing poetry and reading tons of books. I also write short fiction stories and hope to include them on my page soon; I hope you enjoy my work, and thanks for stopping by my page.

6 thoughts on “What am I fighting”

  1. Sharnetha Roberson – NY – I am the author of the title,"The Journey Of My Soul" and Mental Health advocate/speaker. And my passion is helping others with mental health/chronic pain heal or learn to cope with their illness through expressive writing.
    Sharnetha Roberson says:

    Lovely🌹

    1. mywords2228 – Love writing poetry and reading tons of books. I also write short fiction stories and hope to include them on my page soon; I hope you enjoy my work, and thanks for stopping by my page.
      mywords2228 says:

      Thank you!

  2. Such a wonderful, powerful poem. Certain parts towards the end had me re-reading them for the experience… Beautiful.

    1. mywords2228 – Love writing poetry and reading tons of books. I also write short fiction stories and hope to include them on my page soon; I hope you enjoy my work, and thanks for stopping by my page.
      mywords2228 says:

      Thank you so much, I’m so glad you enjoyed it!

  3. perfectionhasapriceblog – I have been through a lot of crap in my life, but then again, who hasn’t? I believe in being honest and putting my story out there. I believe in using my VOICE, because really, speaking up is the only way we can expect to break down stigma and barriers. As cliché as it sounds, I am just another young(ish) adult wondering how I grew up so frigging fast (at all), while trying to find my way in this world.
    perfectionhasapriceblog says:

    wow. this part: And then it all becomes too much and I combust

    Into tiny pieces and I am no more, like you.” – i reread like 10 times because it just felt so right and beautiful and true. amazing piece. <3

    1. mywords2228 – Love writing poetry and reading tons of books. I also write short fiction stories and hope to include them on my page soon; I hope you enjoy my work, and thanks for stopping by my page.
      mywords2228 says:

      Thank you, I’m so glad you enjoyed it! I love your comment on this post, thank you for taking the time to comment.

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