Are not going to bleed into tomorrow is sometimes easier to hope about.
These moments before you have to go back to being the other person you become once you walk out that door.
Is only temporary and when you come back that person fades away until next time.
You try with all your might to not let both worlds become one for you know there is more anger and drama in one and not much going on in the other.
To have peace and to have understanding with all the people you deal with is nice from time to time.
For your hope to become more than what you thought was possible feels amazing and not a burden either for once feels so good you hope this feeling doesn’t ever go away.
I don’t tend to stick out for I am not sure I’m ready for all the attention lord.
I like the peace of not being someone everyone is looking too for answers and when everything is not calm.
To be thankful that you always here for me and when I feel like too much is being pushed on me your always there to take some of the burden off of me.
Putting you first is the best thing I can do in my life for you guide the way for me and when I come to you everything seems less stressful than if I relay only on myself.
Today will be a great day because you will be by my side every step of the way and I know nothing that will or can happen is too much for us to handle together.
My mind is clear and I take this time to just enjoy the little things in life that you have blessed me with and everything else will come when the time is right.
To you I say thanks for today is possible because of you.
I have forgotten all that have been around me when times were rough
as I live in the moments that are good.
But, soon the darkness comes back and I am faced with the truth did I let all that was good just walk away because I was being ungrateful to them.
Time has gone by and I just don’t know how much time has gone by that I’ve reached out and talked to you.
Life just keeps moving forward and all I want to do is just not be so tired from trying to do more than I am capable of doing.
No moment of rest just filling and filling and yet there is no end to the mess that we are in and the light that shined in at first now is just a spot in the corner.
You begin to wonder how long did I walk around in the dark ignoring the light that was trying to guide me home.
Because I thought I knew what was best for me and the path that I am on just doesn’t feel right anymore or maybe it never did but there was something good on the path so the stress and pain wasn’t so bad.
For that someone was taking all the hits and nothing was getting through to me but now that something is saying it is time to step off the road that is leading you no where good.
It’s time to listen to me and follow me from the hell you are living in and come into the light where nothing bad can touch you unless that thing was meant to show you the way to a better place.
To feel this overwhelming love and peace and to know that someone is always watching your back even when you feel you have come and delivered.
But, your life purpose is not yet over and it’s time to take a walk down a new path now and I hope you are ready.
you I just feel like there is no care in the world.
And, I’m grateful that I get these moments when I feel nothing but peace.
The thoughts of anger and sadness just aren’t around when you are so near to me.
I feel like I’m alive again and the things that have been thrown at me just aren’t as big as I thought or felt they were.
With your words and love I am free from the chains that hold me to my sorrow, today the sun shines down and all I think of is that is you warming me with your love.
I don’t doubt you but, sometimes I doubt myself because the pressure is on me now then it was before and I’m trying my best most of the time.
I feel like I’ve lost my mind and become the mad hater and nothing that is coming out my mouth now is making any sense.
I try to focus but, it’s hard when everything is being thrown at me from so many directions.
I catch somethings and well others I miss and I try to do my best not to overstressed but it all becomes too much at the end of the day.
To praise him is like taking a deep breath and then jumping from a cliff
and knowing that when you fall into the water you would be safe.
He makes me feel alive and that tough days are worth it in the end and there will always be light at the end of my tunnels in my lifetime.
I find myself more and more each day when I listen to the music that praises you.
Who are you they ask?
You are my God, you are my father, my protector, my healer, my biggest supporter, and my life saver.
You are the reason I keep writing and the reason I keep going when life gets tough because without you the demons in my life would win and I wouldn’t be who I am today.
My past would still haunt me night and day and there would be no escape for me, no outlet to pour all those fears and pain into.
I wouldn’t be as strong as I am today without your strength, without your love because your love is greater than any love this world could ever offer me.
I praise you today and for the rest of my life and no one not even the devil can tear me away from you because nothing can ever have a hold on me like you do.
the talks we share are so great and the time invested into this friendship
is the reason it hasn’t fallen apart like the rest.
I don’t take you for granted and I care about the things that are going on with you rather they are small or large.
I have your back even when you just want to be alone and just want to do everything on your own.
I tell you to not go down the same path I went for some times I feel so hollow inside and time has not yet healed those wounds of my mistakes.
You are my fresh air when life just feels like I can’t breathe anymore, you are the strength I lean on when the world’s ugliness is just too much for me to handle.
You are my light when the darkness is all I see in my life and every where I go.
You are my antidote to the poison of this world that tries to bring me down now and then.
anymore for I have new hope that this will workout
for me in the end.
When the sun is shining brightly from the beginning and the peaceful feeling is washing over me today.
I know that things will look and be good for me and those around me.
I don’t have time to look back at the things I missed out on or the things in the present that are not apart of my life.
I live for the now and if you’re not apart of my present than that’s on you not me and I smile knowing that I made the best out of what I had.
And the possibilities are just starting and future holds so much for me but I’m going to focus on the present and light up everything that comes my way.
Because, this year is the battle of a lifetime and I won’t stop fighting.
Even when my hope gets low, I will just rely on my faith to carry me through it no matter what.
For I don’t have time to look back when the most important things are right in front of me.