I am ready for the challenges and days when things are easy.
I know that there will be struggles and I accept the things that I can and can’t change because I am alive and I am grateful for the things I can do.
I am ready for today and the next day and I’m ready to explore so much more and not do the same things I did last year.
I am ready to step onto a new path and walk down it with a smile on my face with so much hope that nothing can bring me down on this walk of faith and hopeful beginnings.
that more days could be filled with Joy and happiness.
That people could help one another more than the little time they can afford to give up.
That we wouldn’t forget the things that come before and after.
That we would cherish the things and time we have together for so much is happening.
I wish that somethings would become less important the most important thing would be family and all the things that are too much would leave those that can’t handle it alone.
is all I wanted to do this year as I knew I had to get to you and see you for the holidays.
Nothing can stop me from getting to you this year not even these leaves I’m about to drive through with my new red car as I make my way on the back roads this year.
I know that I must take my time but, don’t worry I will make it in time for Thanksgiving dinner and to hug you later when our stomachs are full and her hearts are just as full too.
Today means so much to me and I just didn’t know how much until I walked through that door and saw you sitting there with the biggest smile I ever saw on your face.
Seeing you and hugging you was the greatest moment of my day and then came the food but, it’s you I will remember when I look back on the memories we made today.
It first starts in my throat and I feel like my breath was just taken from me and then it begins to grow into my stomach until I curled up in so much pain.
That it just doesn’t seem possible for one person to be able to handle all of t his at once without passing out.
I reach out for a bottle of water to quench my thirst to put out the fire in my throat for I’ve seen better days.
I try so hard to feel better so that I can get back to feeling secure in the body that carries me through it all.
I fight for my sanity as my head begins to spin but yet I can’t give up for they are counting on me even though I’m barely holding on myself.
Some how I get through it all just to crash and burn the next day and then back to being okay the next.
There is a war going on inside of my body and I don’t think that I’m winning right now but the battle is not over yet.
I’m not fully myself yet but I’m fighting with all I got to get back to the me that was strong and dependable no matter what was thrown my way.
to relax and think about a place to call my Paradise.
If I had the time I would arrive at my Paradise and the
first thing I would see would be the beach with it nice sand
and, blue clear water from the front of the resort I’d be staying on.
My Paradise would have free complimentary Alcoholic beverage as you pull up in the
shuttle that picked you up at the airport.
The lobby would be grand and open space with a large all crystal chandelier hanging
from the ceiling and, the walls would be white & gold with clean white tiles.
A grey rug would lead you up to the receptionists desk where you key for your room
would be waiting for you, once you checked in.
And your room would be so luxury, that when you open the door the fresh smell with a little hint of mint will greet you as you get settle and sit on your bed for the week or two.
You will be delighted on how soft the bed is and the sheets feel so soft like what you feel the clouds in the sky would feel like.
As you quickly fall asleep from the long day of travel, you can’t wait until tomorrow to feel the sad between you toes and water washing over you as you take a nice swim in the ocean.
And when that joyful moment is over, you can’t wait to explore this island and resort you are on and to be able to forget about your troubles and just for once focus on relaxing and enjoying the time of your life.