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Poetry

Crashing

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down on me like a storm brewing outside 

Thunder and lightning crashing down as every word

that comes out your mouth hits me hard in my chest. 

I can feel the lightning hit my heart as it breaks into a million pieces 

and the little bit of hope that I was holding on to for us is gone. 

I’m gone and I wonder what will happen to me now as you took a little joy I had left in me. 

I float through my days on a dark cloud of hopelessness and I wonder when will the light come back. 

As days go by my heart slowly starts to fix itself and I feel the pain decreasing but the memories start to haunt me as I close my eyes and you appear in my dreams.

Just when I start to forget you, you reappear and the pain shots through me and I’ve been stuck again and this nightmare starts to grab at everything that was in the light trying to erase my happiness all together. 

I know I have a war in my hands and I have to fight tooth and nails to get out of this one and win back my sanity, my hope, my happiness and my peace of mind. 

This time I will come out on top and my heart will be a little bit stronger for the next attack that will come its way. 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

I know

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that things will be different now and I’m trying to be strong through all the changes.

But, all I feel is this great weight on my shoulders and I didn’t ask for this and all I can do is walk with my head up and hope I carry it all on my own.

Or I can let it drop and move on and not feel guilt that this thing I didn’t wait is left for someone else to pick up.

I know my limits but, lately it’s like to others my limits don’t matter for they just don’t want to do certain things themselves and so they hope I will do it for them.

I know you dont’ expect this from me and so that’s fine when you are in shock and realizing your back up plan is no more.

I know that I feel free and no weights are weighing me down anymore and I know you may look at me differently but, I never signed up saying I’d be your yes girl.

So no I don’t have time for you now and I’ll let you know when I do.

 

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

How

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much more do I have to give for what I owe to be over.

I’m so ready to cut ties and move on and not look back

I know that this has been a longtime coming and I just can’t believe

this day has finally happened and I can just finally let go of everything.

There is no going back at this point and I’m so grateful to be sharing this moment with you.

I know that the days will seem so much tougher than we thought at first but we can pull this off and everything will workout for the better.

I know that I can hide the truth from reaching my face but for how long I don’t know at this point.

I just know that once it’s all done and I walk out that door it will be like walking into heaven and finally feeling like I’m at home and knowing this is where I belong.

I know right now the fight is worth being apart of but at what expanse?

 

 

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

 

Poetry

I’ve

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always stood out in the crowd even though it’s not been always a good thing.

You see I’m different and I’ve always have been but the color red has always made me feel strong and confident.

I know even though I am hiding now in this photo the red draws you in and you want to know the girl behind the umbrella.

Maybe one day when I feel the world is ready to meet me again will I come out behind the things that help hide the true me.

Maybe I will one day be okay with being out in the crowd again and not worry about anything but, enjoying the time I have out in the open with a smile on my face.

Letting the sun shine down on me and hiding nothing from this world I live in today.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

My

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lack of words

my lack of presence

my lack of hope

my lack of time

my lack of energy

my lack of motivation

all leads to me not really making any progress on anything right now.

But, all that is listed does it ever really get noticed and maybe that’s the real

problem.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

Did

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I ignore it when everything was bright and seeing the truth was so clear for me.

Now all I can see is bits and pieces of light as I go through my day and week.

Did I lead myself into this tunnel of darkness and will I be able to get myself out of this or will they be right that there is no kindness when it comes to me.

I am the darkness in your night and the nightmare in your dreams and even when you are up you can still feel me.

Hear my dark words whispering to you as you just begin to smile I take that happiness away from you and steal your joy without a blink of the eye.

I find joy in your misery because it makes me feel so strong that you thought you could out run me.

My name is what you wish you knew so that you could get away from me and erase me from you mind and you want to stand strong at the end of this battle.

But, I truly don’t want to leave for I like weakening you and taking all that you have and hoping one day you will be completely mine.

I’ll let you keep guessing who I am but, the truth is I don’t want to tell you and give you that power over me.

 

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

Do I

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really want to know the outcome of the situation that is happening around me right now.

Do I really want to get involved at the time or do I just want to keep the peace and stay out of it.

I don’t want to feel their pain or deal with their drama for I just want to be right now.

Not in the spot light but not completely in the dark either, but at the same time do I really need to know the truth behind it all.

I want to be surrounded by light and not let any of the darkness in today, I want to rest and not keep fighting off my problems and their problems too.

When will the rest come for me, oh I hope soon for I’m getting too tired to keep fighting these battles for so long.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

Here we go

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again the three of us hanging out always spells for a good time.

Laughter is always loud and around when we are together even if it just for a hour and a half.

We try to meet up more but lately these have been a little busy for us all but, I know that soon things will slow down.

We love to shop together and walk around together laughing and catching up with no care in the world.

We have always had each other’s back since day one of this friendship, even with the odd number of three we always made it work and made sure no one felt left out.

They always said trouble was coming when the three of us got together and maybe sometime we cause a little damage here and there but we always fixed what we broke.

Our style is each unique and different that no matter apart of together we always commented on something we care wearing.

We accept each other flaws and know that at the end of the day we have each others back and nothing will keep us apart for long.

For we became friends at 6 years old and we because family soon after.

Our pain whether separate or together we comfort each other in person or on the phone for at the end of day we know that we don’t want to be missing the other in the reality that they are not coming back.

We spend time together like it’s our last and we know if it is we lived it to the fullest with no regrets and no opportunities left unturned.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

I

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remember the first flower you ever gave me and how you smiled so sweetly at me that day.

You melted my cold heart that day giving it back the heat it needed to keep warm and beat strong inside of me.

The days of it just being me were long ago as my days became me and you always smiling and explore new things together.

Not wasting a moment together to see and experience what life has to offer us and taking risk left and right because well we only live once.

There wasn’t a dull moment with us and every moment was worth taking a picture of for the memories were breath-taking for me.

That flower shined so bright just like you and the smile that was always pasted on your face when you saw me.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

Daily Prompt: Famous

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Being well-known doesn’t mean that you have to be  famous

you could just be some who does an amazing job that others are happy to spread the good word of your hard work around.

We all want  to notice in some type of way and maybe it doesn’t have to end with millions of people.

Maybe a couple hundred or fewer people know how great you are will be enough and you will feel successful and honored that someone out there is truly thinking about you.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Daily Prompt: Famous

Poetry

A little lost

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for words these days when everything starts to feel like it’s blending all together and you just aren’t spending your time wisely.

You feel like you want to do much more with what you have been offered but, because of the situation life seems to be going in you just don’t get to enjoy it as much.

You want to say more but, you’re so far from feeling like yourself that nothing seems to be helping you get out of this place where you are stuck.

Feeling like you have lost your way and this life you seem to not enjoy so much isn’t helping you find yourself or helping do much at all but feel empty at the end of the day.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

Anywhere

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I rather be right now than here in the darkness that swallows me whole with no exit insight.

I sit here trying to think of a way out because it feels like I’m suffocating on all that is pushing up against me.

This solution is not an answer to my situation and so I’m back at square one and it feels like I’m running out of time and air around me.

As I slowly fall down and down like black hole that you can’t see the bottom and so when will I hit the spot that tells me this is solved and over with.

Nothing to help me pull my way back up, right now it feels like a losing battle for me and as I fall I start to think about the things that have come before this moment and time.

Was there a time that I could have stopped myself from falling into this danger that just eats me alive and ends up with me being nothing in the end.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

Feeling

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a little lost after spending so much time on the move that when one slows down.

It’s like I’ve missed so much while the people who demand so much of me don’t care as I lose myself for the person I see in the mirror these days are a stranger.

Her eye’s always looking so tired and sad that I wonder what others see when they see her every day.

Do they see her cry for help because all she wants to do is escape?
And not be trapped in this space of feeling like a stranger in her own body.

The sweet and innocent person is now so sad and angry or just too tired to care at all what she is.

Not letting anyone walk over her, she has become so hard.
It’s so hard to be soft towards anyone for her guard is always up now.

She feels like nothing good is coming from her new change and fears her sometime good time will soon turn into nothing but nasty and unfortunate events.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Daily Prompt: Complication

Poetry

Daily Prompt: Core

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I knew the truth of that day would come back and haunt me down to the very core of my exist.

I didn’t want to face the facts that something dark and sad happened that day that well only a few know the truth about.

It was so long ago that I didn’t want it to be brought up again.

It felt like a recurring nightmare that some how was developing out each not to be more frightening than before.

All the details were still fresh in my mind even though years have passed by since that day.

I didn’t sense danger at first but, yet I knew something was not right about that moment and even though I can’t go back and erase it away.

I know that it ended on an okay note and today it doesn’t haunt me as much as it used too.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Daily Prompt: Core

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Happy Mother’s day

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Everyone!

I hope everyone is enjoying this day with their mother or you are a mother or soon to be mother.

I know that some of you mothers may no longer be here and today will be sad for you but, just keep the love she shared with you while she was here bright and strong in your hearts today.

I hope everyone has a blessed day and enjoy the little bit of relax you may receive today.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes