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Poetry

The reason

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I am here is still growing.

I am more present each day than before, and I do not know where I will end.

But the hope that I would survive each battle got me smiling today.

Today is a blessing I must accept because I’m more than the four walls I sleep in.

Like the weather, I’m heating up with hope, and my light is shining brightly as the winter blues fade away and the spring bursts through.

Rain or shine, I know I can get through it, and today feels like a new beginning as things begin to unlock again.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes Copyrighted ©️ 2024 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

No more

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Fear is what I tell myself as I prepare to go live in my Facebook group to promote my journey as a confidence coach on April 24 at 11 am. Hopefully, a good Wednesday it will be.

But the truth is I’m shaking with fear because the fear of public speaking is strong.

And even though I’m preparing and trying not to freak I’m only human.

But I got through the words I wanted to say and had to keep breathing slowly through my nose to calm myself down.

I know I can’t give up and not show up, for this is what I’m meant to do. Use my voice any way god needs me to.

And yes, it’s hard to get out of my comfort zone, but I’ve done it before I can do it again.

No more fear as I sit behind a screen, ready to spread my winds and words for the first time in a long time. I’m doing something new, not just for me but for the women watching and seeing the replay.

I’m calm now, and I hope this change will be a stepping stone to continue conquering each journey that God has come my way.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes Copyrighted ©️ 2024 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

Writing down

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My thoughts and letting them go have been easy these days.

It’s as easy as letting go of people in my life.

As I get older, I don’t feel the desperate need to keep people around who aren’t treating me right.

Like I used to because finding and keeping friends was hard enough as a shy person.

But I, too, deserve to feel understood and heard, and so do they, but sometimes in life, there are shells too hard to break, and you have to let them be by themselves for your mental health.

As I write and the sorrow goes away, I know I will always be polite to them, but trust and believe these walls aren’t coming back for them.

Sometimes, I guess the people who will rock with me for thick and thin are still out there, and I won’t give up on finding them since I know my worth and what I deserve now.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes Copyrighted ©️ 2024 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

In these

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Moments, the excitement of the holiday seems so innocent and simple.

The twinkle lights still excite you as you wait for more lights to be put up around the neighborhood.

Sometimes, the lights guide us back to the spirit of Christmas we may have lost when life wasn’t as innocent as we thought.

Even when the time spent with your favorite people is all you crave this time of year.

I think we all feel the joy and excitement this time of year as the sadness and joy of another year come to an End and the hope the next year will be better.

As spends by with 22 days until Christmas and 28 days until this year ends and a new year begins.

I’m trying to say in the present, but time seems to fly by with no reason to slow down anytime soon.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes Copyrighted ©️ 2023 By Deirdre Stokes

My thoughts

I can’t believe

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Yesterday was eight years of blogging on word press.

Oh, how I’ve grown over the last couple of years.

The first year was full of all the words I needed to get out to be free from past wounds.

And the last seven have been years of finding my words and being more open.

This celebration, to me, is still having the desire to write and share my work, which has been life-changing.

I can’t wait to see what the little bit left of this year has in store for me and what next year will bring.

I am blessed to have my blog and everyone who follows me, which inspires me to continue to write and share my life. To many more years of writing and enjoying others’ posts! 🙂❤️

Poetry

I can’t

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Just give up

Because I know if I do

It’s going to haunt me for the rest of my life.

The would and could have done that will be on my mind rolling around and teasing me into the end of time.

It will be worse than being bullied and losing my voice.

It will be a never-ending torture that only I can end, so I know I better not give up, for tomorrow is not promised, so today, I will make the most out of it now and hope for the best.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes Copyrighted ©️ 2023 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

I never

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Thought starting over would feel this way

I was off to a great start, and then I got stuck

In the mud called struggles and uncertainty, and here I still am.

I am unsure how to move forward as I sit here wanting more, but I am unsure how to get it anymore.

The drive isn’t as strong, and my life feels like living.

There’s no reason to push myself to keep learning and growing.

Even though those are things I want to do

Are there things I need to do right now?

I don’t know anymore, so my mind is running in circles, trying to figure out what I’ve been up to these last couple of years and whether I will ever make another move this year.

As the mud quickly turns into quicksand, I feel I’ll sink before I figure this out.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes Copyrighted ©️ 2023 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

Oh today

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How you drained me of my energy

Starting from my head to my whole body

Rest was all I wanted and all I could afford to do today.

There were moments of strength and weakness, and I moved as necessary.

I am glad to have this day of rest, as I look forward to getting something done tomorrow.

Today made me realize I needed to slow down and take my time or truly rest, for taking care of myself is essential.

I know what I need to do tomorrow, but for now, I will rest and focus on being in the present moment.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes Copyrighted ©️ 2023 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

To be with

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You when time stopped and the memory of that day was imprinted in my mind as if nothing before and after it will ever be the same.

Nothing can top the sparkle in your eye, the goofiness of your smile, and the depth of your voice as your laugh seems to touch the deepest parts of your soul as I embraced the joy you pointed my way.

Your energy is so pure and bright, shining down like the sun, sometimes too bright to deal with, but other times, your company is all I want, as some days seem longer than others. No One can match your energy.

Even on my worst days, you still can get through my darkest cloud and make me see the light in things.

As the blessing of a rainbow shines around me, I am at peace again as long as you can stay around and brighten up my day.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes Copyrighted ©️ 2023 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

How was I

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I do know this feeling of resilience would go on

On this long and even then, I make a move to make things better I

I get the same results even if I put in the effort and tell myself to just

Just show up and do the darn thing, but yet still, I sit here so conflicted

Conflicted that this may go on for far too long and how

How long can I go on without genuinely trying to make this work

Work for me, or you? That’s the question I long to answer.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes Copyrighted ©️ 2023 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

Oh how

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You play the game

So clever you must think it you are

But I see you so clear right now and your helping but at the same time setting me up.

And when will I learn not to let you get away with it?

I know I should say something, but you won’t listen now.

I’m tired of fighting the battle you manipulated since the beginning of time.

So I will let you play, and maybe I exit the game altogether.

Then you win but so do I and I think I will be happier.

And you will be lost as you loved playing these games as if I was so naive I couldn’t see what you were doing.

But I didn’t care what you thought as I knew who to trust, and I know it’s not you.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes Copyrighted ©️ 2023 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

As the day

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Ends, and what was light turns into darkness.

I look up and smile as today is a good day

I can stand here and be open and free

I can be excited and not fall short in the end.

For the first time, things are starting to fall into place, and there is no coming back from what I left behind.

It’s time to accept that more is out there, and I’m ready to explore it as I have found some great things in darker times.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes Copyrighted ©️ 2023 By Deirdre Stokes