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Poetry

I know

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My focus has shifted when

I felt I had gain something more.

But yet again earthly things distract me from what you need me to do lord.

And I am here to gain control back because everything else seem so temporary.

And I’m looking for things that will last way past the decades to come and to land in the right place.

For I know what I am to do is more than what is happening now.

So even though I focus on somethings around me I’m else looking for more meaning in what I can do in the time given to me.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

Was the one

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Who wanted sleep

But now only getting hours here and there.

Falling asleep through out the day as mornings are spent tossing and turning.

So restless and feeling so hopeless with no hope insight as this is the third morning in a row.

Laying awake turning to close my eyes so hard in hope that will convince myself to fall back to sleep.

But here I am still up since waking up a little after 3am.

Tried reading and praying and yet here I am still up as a part of me begs for sleep.

Yet no relief insight as the morning comes and my responsibilities start to pile up and all I want to do is go back to sleep.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

I didn’t

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See this coming

But I’m looking forward to what will come from it now.

To see you smile when I smile.

To feel the joy together and to get through the doubt and unanswered questions too.

To know the support goes both ways.

To feel this isn’t just some short term thing.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

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To be

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Strong when all you want to do is crawl up in a corner.

To let tears, flow when you can’t hold it all in anymore.

To love unconditionally and hope they will come out alright after you did all you could to nurture them.

To laugh and learn all there is without a manuscript insight but, have so many compliments about what a great job you did.

I would say that these are just a couple things I have seen a great mother do.

For all the things as a child that annoyed me or enlighten me it all stayed with me and made me realize I am who I am because my mother did the best she could.

And her best made me know that I got all I needed to become a good woman and one day a good mother too.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

All around

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me feels like everything is burning up and here I stand as if I have no care in the world.

But the truth is my world has been on fire for weeks and probably months now.

And no matter how much I tried to put the flames out it just kept spreading and now it’s unstoppable.

And all I can do is watch because I too am on fire and I know every step I take would just spread it more and more and I just can’t do that to those who have been so good to me.

So as it all burns around me and falls from the mess I now have to call my life, I hope soon he arrives and puts me out for I do more damage then I could have imagined this time around.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

How can

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Discover Prompts, Day 12: Light

I look towards the light when the darkness seems to be calling my name.

But, before I step in and welcome the feeling of being numb the light shines so bright.

That yet again the darkness disappears and light is all that surrounds me in these darken days.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

Comfort

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food is what we all want right now as we stay inside or go out into the world and work each day.

Hoping this meal is followed by many more delicious ones.

As things become different the taste of food just seems so much more sweeter.

You hope that each meal will bring more enlightment and joy as you gather around your table each night and appreciate each other more than you did before.

For you realize it is good to eat and enjoy but be thankful for the little things in life too.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
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Poetry

I didn’t

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Know going into the unknown

Would break the dam of feelings I’ve been dealing with.

The feeling of not knowing why or how to find my way out.

But allowing those moments of being lost to guide me to a path I didn’t see myself being worthy of.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
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But now, I realize this has been what I’ve always wanted and it was years ago that I let this path fade away.

And now it’s time to go back to what truly completes me and defines me for me.

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Poetry

Spring is

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I hope as it got up to 61 degrees outside

and the sweatpants have to be put away.

But, this spring feeling doesn’t seem to be lasting very long and the temperature starts to drop again as it starts to get dark outside.

So much to look forward too as the clocks are set forward and what feels like nine am is now ten am.

I look forward to what is to come for I am quite tired of the cold and up and downs as I just want to go outside and keep once layer on not keep adding for I don’t want to sick.

The ability to go some where is quite risky these days and makes you second guess your plans as the days continue on.

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Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

Feeling this

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Way is chilling me to my core as if I am half frozen.

Trying to warm up feels like a chore I can’t seem to handle.

I’m trying but I’m losing this battle as I slowly fall back to sleep as the cold slowly overcomes me once again.

 
Written By: Deirdre Stokes
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Poetry

To know

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That what I want is not in front of me right now.

Doesn’t make things any easier to figure out and what decision is going to make things better.

I pray that I don’t mess this up and that I truly know what is right and wrong for me as the days continue to pass by.

I know that I’m trying to do my best to get it done but right now things aren’t adding up but I’m not giving up just yet.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

I’m in

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a mood and no matter how hard I seem to try to shake it off the darker it gets around me.

And I’m not sure my light will be enough to guide my way out of this mess I got myself into this time. 

I know that if I try things will be better but here I am trying to see the light in this situation and it just so hard this time to get through the journey that feels like its on a loop and when I feel the change about to happen it skips and there I am again facing the same stuff. 

There is no good outcome if I don’t get out of this moment soon and fast because I don’t want to be forgotten because I couldn’t get pass this gate of unwanted thoughts and feelings that trap you.

And once your in the ability to get out really is like living in a world with lights on and then it all shuts down and you have to use the strength and memory to get through it or you will be stuck inside your own mind forever. 

I just hope I get out in time for I’ve heard the click and I know this isn’t it for me this time around and hopefully this will be the last of this torture. 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

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What am

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I to do for right now I have no clue.

How or what to do with this life that has been given to me.

The feeling of truly not knowing what is to come of me when the days are long and my energy is low.

But I know I have to keep moving forward no matter what.

But I’m getting tired and the path isn’t as clear as it used to be.

I’m not getting any younger at this point and feeling hopeless and lost Is just becoming darker each and every day.

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I am

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 Made with Bazaart by Lelia Sarda

 So many things when you define me.

I am strong and I am weak

I am smart and I am determined .

I am open minded

I am shy and yet outgoing at times.

I am an closed book but if you give me time I will open up to you.

I am kind and caring.

I will stand up for myself

I can get annoyed but my patience can last a long time.

I am not the one you want to mess with.

I keep my temper in check for going off on others is not worth it.

Holding my tongue sometimes is a must.

 Maybe some day others will accept that we are more than what meets the eye.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
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Poetry

Don’t say

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 The Golden hush by Greg Sharpe

 A word no matter how much you want too.

For right now isn’t the time for words or action.

It’s time to be quite and mind your business as something that are happening around you are not for your eyes or ears.

You must keep your head down if you want to keep moving forward and accomplishing all those goals you set.

It’s not the time to be looking up and around as if others problems are something you live to fix.

Yes I want you to help out but if know you shouldn’t say a word then don’t say a word.

Just be happy you get to see what is meant for you to see and for the rest you know what to do.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes