Tag: tired

Poetry

To be

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Afraid and to do it anyways.

Feels terrifying but if I don’t make this move now.

When will I have the time again?

Or who will do it for me if I don’t do it for myself now.

No more being annoyed when others ask about it for it will be done.

There will be no going back for it is time to let it go.

It is time to trust that it will succeed or it will fail but I put all of me in it.

And that truly is all that matters right now for me.

No more doubts or what if’s for now it will be what now?

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

You call

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My name and I look your way

And I wait for what you have to say.

But nothing seems to come out your mouth and so you look away.

And I stare at you, for I guess I expected more.

I wait for you to turn back around just a little longer than I should have.

For you didn’t turn back or even explain why you called my name and looked my way.

But it was clear you had just wasted my time and energy.

When I had better things to do before you distracted me.

And a part of me was mad and irritated that I had even entertained the fact that you had anything to say to me.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

Was the one

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Who wanted sleep

But now only getting hours here and there.

Falling asleep through out the day as mornings are spent tossing and turning.

So restless and feeling so hopeless with no hope insight as this is the third morning in a row.

Laying awake turning to close my eyes so hard in hope that will convince myself to fall back to sleep.

But here I am still up since waking up a little after 3am.

Tried reading and praying and yet here I am still up as a part of me begs for sleep.

Yet no relief insight as the morning comes and my responsibilities start to pile up and all I want to do is go back to sleep.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

It’s not about

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The numbers or the time for so much can happen and so little at the same time.

You watch and you wait for someone to make a move that just doesn’t work.

But instead of turning away you embrace this change and make it into something more.

For you know this time may be one of your last chances to get it done and for it to be above average.

And just maybe something great.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

In this

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Week 218 of Three Line Tale

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moment I want to focus on what is in front of me and I realize that staring at the screen on my computer isn’t going to make things move quicker.

I know that the day is coming to an end and even though I have done so much it feels like I have so much more to do before I can be done for the day.

I know that this day was long and right now I am tired and ready to move on from the stress of not know what to expect next.


Written By: Deirdre Stokes
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Poetry

Trying to

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Get myself together seems really hard lately.

As I just want to sleep and feel well rested when I get up.

Instead it’s more tossing and turning and looking at the clock more than I really want too.

Night after night it’s the same thing and I begin to wonder will it get better.

Will my system wake up and get it together or will this continue on with no hope insight.

Too tired to fight the urge to just give up and so I will continue on with a spark of hope or whatever it is that’s got me moving.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes © copyrighted 2020

Poetry

It’s windy

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Outside and like my life I would nice for it to just blow some things around.

Until maybe it would be in better shape then it is right now.

The things that are set in stone will be blown around and for once I would welcome a mess in my life.

Something to do for right now it feels like I’m moving around in circles and nothing seems right to me.

I’m running out of steam but I have to keep moving even when I just want to scream enough is enough.

But I know my moment in the wind won’t last and so back to the same old things in the hope of finding the right path for me.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

I’m running

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Low on fuels and I don’t know what to do.

I try to sleep more and that helps a little.

But now I’m running low again and so eat more things that will keep my energy up.

But I’m so tired and I just don’t know what to do.

I know I’d be a fool if I think I can keep going like this.

But what to do is the question of the hour.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

Am I

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To fold to every demand you try to make.

Or will you realize I’m not that same girl.

Things have changed and you may not be okay with that.

But I am because I’m taking back my life and my words and my confidence.

I am tired of second guessing things and hesitating about other things.

I may have been a little over the top but I didn’t make you feel like an outsider looking in on well a life that truly wasn’t never mine.

I found my voice once I let you go and now I barely think of you.

I think you pop up I my mind as a reminder I am and always will be stronger and better off without you! 

 

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

I’m drowing

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And I know there is no one to rescue me as I try to remember everything they has been told to me.

Is it left or right?

And was it the first left or the first right.

I don’t know what to do but keep asking for help as I feel like this is a set up and yet I have no back up plan.

If this doesn’t workout and it becomes too much to handle.

Oh how I wish I wasn’t doing this on my own so soon.

But what am I to do at this point but keep holding on.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Poetry

I feel

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That I want to reach out and stay connected to everyone even though I know it’s not possible.

I somehow still put that stress on myself until I just don’t care.

I feel like my life is calm and yet it doesn’t feel fulfilled.

I’m lost even though I am finally in a good place.

But of course no story is going to continue on without some bumps in the road.

The urge to find the answers to why I feel this way right now is so strong.

But I just don’t have the time to deal with it or every time I have to deal with it I avoid it at all cost.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

Sometimes

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It’s like I’m watching a old movie as memories of my childhood flash before my eyes.

Just one word and I’m pulled into my past and sometimes it’s nice to see those memories.

And other times I’m like why did I think about that again.

But sometimes it’s a nice reminder of how far I have come and how I’m glad I can’t go back.

For living in the now has been wonderful and life changing even through the days of struggles and uncertainty’s.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

Here I

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 Go stepping back into this place that just can’t seem to get it together.

But even though the storm we got stuff done and even though it built back up it was ready for a fresh start.

So lets hope that they work hard and focus on the right things.

As my time with them is limited as I step back out those doors and not have to worry about the carrying around that stress anymore.

I feel like everyday is quiet and still busy but not as overwhelmed and it doesn’t feel like I’m at the zoo or circus.

I’m not doing extra stuff or going through so many hoops to impress someone.

I can breathe and take breaks without the stress of falling behind.

I can enjoy the little things and I can smile and look forward to things and each day.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

I won’t

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Stop until I succeed at these tasks that keep coming up.

I know there is so much I need to know and yet here I am feeling as if all I want to do is go back to bed.

My body doesn’t want to get up and move around and do the things the elk wake me up.

It wants to forget this task and sleep as if we’re about to hibernate for the winter.

For the cold days and nights are just getting too cold.

Oh how I wish I could be wrapped in a warm blanket and maybe just skip today and show up tomorrow.

For I’m sure it will be a much better day for me and my energy will come back by then.

But life does not wait for me to get more sleep or more energy or hope when we’ll all I need is all three right now.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

So many

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changes are happening around me

and when I make a move so many other people are making it too.

To see a face that is so formal who is on a new journey like I am is so thrilling and good.

I know that there  will be bumps and set backs to come but to go on no matter how hard they push back will not set me back for I know.

Through it all I will see the light at the end of this path for I know this journey will be different than all the ones I have taken before.

I can see that this outcome will be more than I could have imagined  at the end of the day, week, month and  year.

For I trust and believe all things are possible if I just believe and trust that these good things that have happen will not stop now but will continue even when my doubt becomes too strong.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes