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Poetry

Sometimes

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in life, you don’t know if your right side up or upside down.

And when you try to find some balance in your life.

Something somehow shifts before your eye and throws you for a curve and before you can get back up they knock you right back down.

And nothing you say or do is working out for you at this point because they chose to knock you down instead of helping you up at the end of your struggle.

You have done so much and right when you choose to move on and do better for yourself they throw you under the bus and expect you to smile and still help out with no worries in sight.

You feel that the pull is becoming too much and you know there is no way you will along this to go on and so you stand your guard and fight the good fight.

Until just come out with what they are planning to do which we all know doesn’t sound like someone who has your back at this point.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

A moment

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with just you and me before it gets cold again.

Lots of candles were lite and petals on the table.

As we came together in hopes of a good night for our day was probably not so good.

But once together again and nothing matters as all the bad moments fade away even if it’s just for tonight.

Everything is quiet and the peace is all around as we stare into each other eyes and have a great night.

And when it’s all said and done we are all just glad to enjoy each other time and hope that the next night out for us won’t be a long time away.

 

 

 

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

You always

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 Have my back

Together we are able to figure it out.

I know no matter what they say you are doing your best.

I don’t expect much and so how you give so much more every time.

I feel others don’t want to admit sometimes your way work.

They just want to put the blame on someone else.

You are someone I look up too and I hope to make something more of myself.

You give your all and you realize that those who choose to pretend will get no where in the end.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

So much

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 Going on around us but yet all we do is get lost in our phones.

It’s easier to be focus on what’s happening in our little squares then deal with meeting someone new.

But, maybe it’s easier to have one less person in our life when life seems too complicated.

Staying close isn’t your thing and even if you try to fight your instinct it always wins out.

Quite time alone and everything is peaceful before another round of noise hits your way.

You begin to wonder if just jumping into the noise would be better for you at this point.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

I quite

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Wish I could escape from this place and that they would forget me.

I know I’m nice and good at what I do but there comes a moment in my life when I just can’t do it anymore.

I feel myself slipping and even as the new year as arrive it is the same things still coming my way.

I may be happy and excited outside of this place but as they keep knocking at my walls of protection.

I feel the slipping down and the so called support for me is no where to be seen at this point.

And so I say forget it and move on for I know it’s not worth complaining about because it’s like talking to a brick wall who can’t seem to help himself at this point.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

It’s the

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Last day of the year

And I know most of it will be spent doing stuff I rather not do.

But I know I will get through it and enjoy the little bit of time I have left.

The cold is all around and everyone either trying not to get sick or sick.

Hopefully as we all gather together tonight we will look back and know we had some good times together.

And even though the storms there always was a rainbow waiting for us.

This day maybe be the last of one year but tomorrow will be the beginning of another and we will truly enjoy it.

For there will be ups and downs but in the end it will always be worth it.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2019 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

Yes it

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is another day in this place

is it going to be great I doubt it.

But here I stand trying to make things right.

I know that I’m doing what I need to do because I have always put others first.

But as the new year quickly approaches I’m really gonna focus on myself and worry about others later when I have accomplish what I want to accomplish in my life for the time I need to get it done is not guaranteed for me.

I know right now I am here and in this moment I am focusing on what makes me, me and worrying about everything else later.

For a time for rest is now for I’ve been busy lately trying to forget and to get lost in almost everything so I don’t have to face the truth that’s been eating me up inside for quite some time now.

Maybe one day I’ll let it all out but for now only a little at a time will I cry and scream for the release I truly need to be at peace with myself.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2019 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

Tired of

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The lies and the blame you want to put on everyone but yourself.

Because at the end of the day it’s someone else that made you mad and upset.

Someone else that ruined your day or week.

But, once you’ve run them all off

Who and what will you have left?

Because once they leave no one will believe your lies and you will feel alone again with no one to save you the next time around.

 

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2019 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

At the

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top looking down

and for the first time

I don’t want to go back.

I don’t want to deal with the problems I didn’t cause and the mess that isn’t being  solved now or ever.

The attitude that thinks it is always right

but it’s way out of line most of the time.

The coldness that only begins to come in as the doors reopened

and the realization that nothing is the same and no one has the patients to stand by and just support.

The stress is too much and better days will come they say but at this point it all feels like lies to me.

 

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2019 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

I remember

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When things were simpler.

Now everything is out of wack and even when we figure things out it is still not enough.

It’s a win-loss situation and when we try to fight back it is still not worth it. 

So instead I just want to throw in my towel and move on with my life.

I know I deserve better and good times will come for me but right now I have to be patient and wait my turn.

The day was long and even when I solved the problem the person didn’t want to listen and in the end, all my work felt not appreciated.

Even though I know they don’t and won’t care either way for complaining is the thing they love the most.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2019 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

IT’S SO

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cold outside that all I can think of once I’m inside again is a nice cup of hot chocolate with some whip cream on top or marshmallows.

To help warm me up inside again for I am not ready for how cold it is right now as the days get closer to Thanksgiving and then Christmas.

But I do enjoy a day of being inside and just watching a movie well been all warm and not having to deal with the cold outside, for I am not ready for snow when it gets too cold.

I can barely stand the weather now as it goes up and down and the wind isn’t helping at all either.

But tonight I’ll try to forget the cold as I wrap up in my blanket and drink something hot and sweet and think about warm things as it rains all night long.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2019 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

I feel

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a little broken lately

as my body grows weak.

And my legs hurt the most

as I stand up all day long moving forward and backward.

Not getting much of a break for I have so much to do and it all must be done.

I know that the day will go by quickly and I will hopefully get it all together in no time for I’m so ready to do more than I thought was possible.

It’s time to pick up my broken pieces and let them float away and grow new pieces along the way as I expand my life like never before.

I will take this chance and I will run with it for I know I am ready for a challenge and ready to get out of my comfort zone and embrace new things and see and meet new people too.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2019 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

Sometimes it

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takes team work to get  the right pose done right.

with just the right amount of patience anything can be succeed if we just both trust that we are capable of the strength needed to not only pull this off but to hold on a little longer than we intended  to.

Today was a good day not just for me but for you too.

Let’s end this week strong and know that there is always time for us to get it together while still supporting each other through this journey where our live continues to grow and be blessed.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2019 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

What am I

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Waiting for as everything just goes down hill.

The frustration is strong and the demand to get it done is ridiculous.

As the anger boils up with nothing left but ashes when I’m done.

Nothing matters anymore as all I see is red and all I want is for the bullshit to end so I can walk way with a smile on my face and the termination of knowing it will not matter in the end

Tomorrow will not be worth it in the end I know I won’t be.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2019 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

The gaping

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Holes in my life just seem to becoming bigger and bigger until there is no safe place for me to stand.

For one wrong step will send you down a hole and what is inside is an answer I don’t even know.

So much light is around but the path to getting out is not even more than a line.

To cross will not be easy but I know I can’t stay on this side anymore.

Because if I do the only thing full of darkness won’t be just the holes around me.

For I won’t be myself and everything everyone sees in me will not matter or be true anymore.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2019 By Deirdre Stokes