Tag: happy

Poetry

I don’t

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how to feel right now for I have so many emotions running through me.

I am happy but yet I am sad and tired and feeling lost but with a somewhat focus on moving forward.

I want to admit so many things but, I’ve always been the one to keep it to myself and I start to wonder who truly knows me.

I’m sometimes open up about the things that go on in my life but, other times I keep it all to myself.

I wonder if I’m helping myself or hurting my chances at really seeing this world for what it truly is.

I know I’m trapped in a box that well always seems to be going in the same circle that only seems to drain me.

Nothing seems to bring much joy to me when I’m in that box because returning to it is not something I look forward too.

I can feel my smile slipping off my face as I walk through that place, I try to be positive and hopeful but, that pretending just isn’t happening anymore.

I don’t know when I will finally let it all out but sometimes it’s right there on my tongue and I just want to scream it.

And frankly, I don’t care how I look to the people on the outside for I’m done caring and well it feels freeing to know that this is not the end for me.

In time my plan will come to be and the scream will feel so right and strong for damn I will wonder why I waited so long.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

I can’t

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keep going on like this

hiding the pain behind it all.

The tears that fall

are not for a show or attention.

Because, well I rather be left alone

but no matter what they keep pushing their way into my safe place.

The place that keeps me whole when everything else in this world is falling to crap and the outcome is not looking very good.

I know I’m supposed to be stronger but I’ve always been the weak one and everything well is all an act to just keep the real me locked away.

For she is really fragile and I’m not ready to let her out for this world would crush her and I really can’t let that happen.

So those that I’ve let in I’m sorry for my walls are so about to go back up for it’s not safe to let anyone in right now.

I’ve seen the truth and well it’s not pretty and well I just don’t want to be out in the open anymore.

So goodbye I will miss you but, I know its saver on my own and I now know that I’ve made the best decision.

For I’m free and everyday I wake up and walk on the beach and the sun beats down on me and I’m at peace.

No more stress or pressure now I’m free and in a place that makes me feel free and at the end of the day I smile instead of crying myself to sleep.

The ending for me is happiness  and not what it could have been complete misery with no light to guide me out of that hell.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Captive by your words!

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Free Flow Friday with Laura

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Captive by your words as I sit down and read a good book and completely zone out as I get sucked in to each page. 

As the story unfolds right in front of my eyes I just can’t look away and when I get to the last couple of pages.

I just can’t put it down until I know what has happened and how it ended and then I can go to sleep and wake up and wait around for the next book in the series to come out. 

And while I wait I fall into another book and read that one until my reading obsession is satisfied. 

Like handcuffs once I am locked in to a new book that is so good it’s hard to let go and get out of a story so captivating it stays with months later. 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Captive by your words!

Poetry

Here we go

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100 word Wednesday

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Here we go onto the escalator as we head in the direction of our destination

to be free and get time off without stressing over work and anything else.

To finally get to enjoy the breeze and fresh air outside and not just the cold A.C. inside your job.

To be around different people and not feel like you can’t be yourself and just enjoy the time you have to yourself.

The days you got off will be spent enjoying the life that you need a break from and to not have someone question you about anything just felt so nice and relaxing for the feeling of not being overwhelmed is the best feeling in your world right now.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Here we go!

Poetry

HAPPY EASTER!

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Everyone, I hope you all have a great Sunday!

This day is more than Easter baskets and the yummy things inside them.

It’s another day to worship my lord and today is the day he gave his life for me, a sinner and once a lost soul just cruising through life.

I thought I knew who I was supposed to be and what I was to do with my life, but then time slowed down and I became confused on the direction of my life.

Everything I loved and thought was what I needed to do was gone and not even an option anymore.

He guided me to the right place and  everything became clear and I’m where I’m meant to be with the hopes of more to come.

I stop letting my failures or let downs hold me down and I stop trying to be someone I no longer am.

I became someone new and there is no going back and for that I will always be grateful and so today is more than just another holiday or Sunday for me.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

Quiet

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I am

Sometimes I don’t have much to say.

In silence I stand watching the world around me.

Not much to say as I disappear into my mind and think before I say something.

But, at the same time I like the quite moments when no one is making a sound.

And all is quiet

As if everyone is sleeping and I’m up just enjoying the world for what it is.

The moon shining down on me as the noise of the world start to fade as we all become so tired that our eyes can’t bare to stay open for another moment.

So quite it is as the music plays in my ears and nothing outside or around me can be heard and, I’m at peace and I’m at home.

With no care in the world I welcome the quite moments and, fade into the world where no ones else voice is heard.

For just a moment I find the missing pieces of who I am and, I thank the quite for granted me the truth I need to see.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Happy one Year

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anniversary to my blog.

This year has been so amazing I have grown so much in my writing and as a person.

I am blessed that my lord has blessed me with the courage to write again and to let everyone see it.

I may be  a shy person but this blog was a wake up call and it take me out of my comfort zone every time I write and hit publish.

I am so happy to have written 468 post and I’m not planning to stop or slow down.

I am thankful and grateful for this blog and the blogging community.

To all 411 followers I have to the friends I’ve made on here.

It’s been an amazing year and I can’t wait to see how far I can go next year with my writing.

I hope you all stay and keep reading my work and,that you all have a great day!