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Poetry

Two

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is what we became that day when you said I love you to me and at the time I didn’t say it back but, you already knew how I felt and would say it when I was ready.

The sun seemed so bright that day as I stared into your eyes for a long time and no I wasn’t bored or tired of looking at you.

For I could have done this for the rest of my life and never got tired of looking at you.

I didn’t know that things would change a little after that day and two would become one for so much longer did I would have liked.

I didn’t know what to think as all I could think about was how two was once my favorite number and being with you  was like having my favorite ice cream every day of the week and not worry about calories.

I just loved the feeling of joy that filled me to the top that often I felt so happy and I loved that feeling so much that when it was gone.

I cried for it every day and every moment that it would come back and the hole that was apart of me would close up again.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

I used to

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be like the sun so full of bright light all the time and things were peaceful and silly and nothing really got to me.

Then I became like daylight saving and those moments that were so bright became so much darker and the light was seen so much more less.

Yet, there I was sitting in the same spot feeling so differently as if I was a cup full of goodness and now I was an empty cup and nothing good was left of me.

I was a favorite and now I’m not something that is old and has always been around and well no more useful to you then a book for who reads anymore.

I was like Christmas when you were young and the excitement was so big that you just couldn’t contain it anymore and so you woke up so early so hoping there was something more under the tree.

Now holiday days aren’t that fun to you for well you still have to work and you just don’t have the time or energy to do much.

So when you look back at what I used to be and do for you, your were grateful for those times and now you just don’t have the same hope you once had in me.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

Words

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come and go from your lips.

And lately I just don’t want to listen anymore

I just want to run away and not take on this responsibility.

I know I will be eaten alive soon by your ways for I’m the prey and you’re the shark coming to take what is not yours to have.

No regret will be on your mind as you turn and tear down all that I have built so far.

I don’t know how many more of your attacks I can take for the pretending to be okay is feels like a losing battle now.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

So much

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to do that I thought if I just take the time to organize the things I may need soon would help clear my mind and help me create something unique again. 

As I looked back at the board of colors I just knew whatever it was that I was going to make would be so colorful it would just bring a smile to anyone and everyone’s face. 

I was thrilled to know that tomorrow I could be creating something new and beautiful if only the right colors would just pop out at me today. 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

so much!

Poetry

Did

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I ignore it when everything was bright and seeing the truth was so clear for me.

Now all I can see is bits and pieces of light as I go through my day and week.

Did I lead myself into this tunnel of darkness and will I be able to get myself out of this or will they be right that there is no kindness when it comes to me.

I am the darkness in your night and the nightmare in your dreams and even when you are up you can still feel me.

Hear my dark words whispering to you as you just begin to smile I take that happiness away from you and steal your joy without a blink of the eye.

I find joy in your misery because it makes me feel so strong that you thought you could out run me.

My name is what you wish you knew so that you could get away from me and erase me from you mind and you want to stand strong at the end of this battle.

But, I truly don’t want to leave for I like weakening you and taking all that you have and hoping one day you will be completely mine.

I’ll let you keep guessing who I am but, the truth is I don’t want to tell you and give you that power over me.

 

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

Were

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You happy when you set me free from this life you said had so much more to offer me these days.

Did you ever think about how I really would feel about you leaving me that day and how long it took me to get to this place of peace I’m living in now.

I reach up to the sky and I feel so blessed to feel the light shining down on me this day.

I know that who I am today is because of me and that day you walked away from me, made me realize how much I was leaning on you and not standing on my own two feet.

I need to be balance of myself before I could ever really lean on someone else and now I’m more happy than I could like possible.

 

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

Let

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me play you a song because I heard you were really into music and love original songs.

So here I go to the girl in the front row that stole my heart the moment our eyes meant that night six months ago.

As you song and played your guitar to the song you dedicated to me, I couldn’t stop crying and smiling to the sweet lyric you wrote about me and our love story.

I knew that everything that we had been through was worth working out and that or future was brighter than I thought it could possibly be.

I had so much hope that we would work out because of that day changed me and opened my eyes to a side of you I didn’t know existed.

I fell in love with you more that night and that song became my favorite song of all time and I still play it now and then when you don’t personally sing it to me.

We made it so much farther than maybe we would have if you hadn’t written that song and laid it all out for me that day.

Because, before that night it was so hard to get you to spill how you felt without you closing up and the conversion always ending before I got all my answers from you.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

Do I

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belong here or should I run for the door and not deal with this anymore.

I want to run and not stay like I always do because I just need a break from the usual things I settle for.

I don’t think I can continue to be that girl you used to know because so much has happened that I don’t even know who that girl used to be.

I’m standing still and time is just passing me by and I just can’t seem to be able to break this spell that I’m stuck in.

There is no place I rather not be more than I don’t want to be here, I start to shut down just thinking about this place.

Has me going back inside my shell that protects me from all the stuff being thrown my way and at first I tried to juggle it all but, now its all falling apart.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

 

Poetry

shh..

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Don’t let them know you are hearing every word coming out of their mouth right now.

You know what they are saying has nothing to do with you but you just can’t help listening so hard at this moment.

As they go around the corner, you just want to know what is going on and can you be apart of it.

You don’t want to let them know you heard them but you want to know what’s going on because this may be an opportunity that could benefit you the most.

Even if it all works out you may want to calm down because the truth is you feel you are more valuable than you really are.

It’s a shame that you don’t see what a mess you are and what a mess you are making because, you feel you have and will get what you want in the end but that is not how it’s truly going to go.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

Alone

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Alone I sit here with no worry in the world right now, my mind hasn’t been this clear in so long.

The peace of knowing nothing will bother me as I sit here and wait for my day to pick up the pace.

No rushing for me as I look at the boat we used to paddle out together on, Oh how we wished to escape from this place that brought us more sorrow than joy in the end.

You always  smiled at me even on your worst days, you found a little joy.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Alone

Poetry

I don’t want to say Yes!

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Three Line Tales, Week 121

photo by Julian Lozano via Unsplash

 

You’ll find full guidelines on the TLT page – here’s the tl;dr:

  • Write three lines inspired by the photo prompt (& give them a title if possible).
  • Link back to this post (& check the link shows up under the weekly post).
  • Tag your post with 3LineTales (so everyone can find you in the Reader).
  • Read and comment on other TLT participants’ lines.
  • Have fun.

 

I don’t want to say yes to you or anyone right now, for I just want to be left alone and not bothered. 

I just need things to be quite and I just don’t want to fight this anymore for if I don’t get this break I’m going to scream. 

I don’t want to fall apart because of the stress is just too much so I will say no because, saying yes is not helping me and right now I’m barely holding on.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

I don’t want to say Yes!

Poetry

I believe

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I’m in to deep and now the chains just seem so hard  to break.

But, with all the strength I have left in me I will break them and get away from this place for I just can’t do this anymore.

I walk through life walking around like a zombie with nothing on my mind but getting out of this place.

I feel like time is going by too fast and I’m just barely moving at this point and when I gaze around I truly see all the things that I am missing out on.

I regret this move and now all the cards are out of my hand and I feel like the sinkhole called my life is just getting bigger and bigger.

And my screams for help are getting too soft that no one will hear them in the end.

I am trapped and the way out just looks like a locked door that will not ever open and I will be here for the rest of my life.

That feels like misery and painful and the most stupid and ignorant people just keep kicking me around for their pain is best thrown at me for they don’t want to deal with it.

So like a human punching bag I’m kicked and punched and spit at until they feel like I will break like a worn out piece of rope.

Just one more insult and I will just snap and fall to the floor and as I become nothing more than a used up rag doll.

They won’t feel sad just feel the victory of another win well deserved in their eyes.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Happy Mother’s day

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Everyone!

I hope everyone is enjoying this day with their mother or you are a mother or soon to be mother.

I know that some of you mothers may no longer be here and today will be sad for you but, just keep the love she shared with you while she was here bright and strong in your hearts today.

I hope everyone has a blessed day and enjoy the little bit of relax you may receive today.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

You

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could be anywhere and yet you are here staring at me as if all the words you have to say can be translated through eye contact.

I understand what you are pending with me and I’m here to help you in any way that I can.

I know that lately things have seem so distanced between us and I don’t like the space that has grown in the space where there used to not be there.

You always knew my words and now it’s like I barely know yours and yet here we are staring at each other hoping that the message gets to where it needs to get to before it’s too late.

Your touch always told me right away what you needed to feel or hear and no amount of time could make me not feel this way.

 

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

Colors

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Three Line Tales, Week 119

photo by Oneisha Lee via Unsplash

 

You’ll find full guidelines on the TLT page – here’s the tl;dr:

  • Write three lines inspired by the photo prompt (& give them a title if possible).
  • Link back to this post (& check the link shows up under the weekly post).
  • Tag your post with 3LineTales (so everyone can find you in the Reader).
  • Read and comment on other TLT participants’ lines.
  • Have fun.

 

Lost in the colors and how tall the rocks are that everything in life that has been black and white just don’t compare to these bright colors that make me happy and at peace. 

This trip was something I needed so badly, to be out in the middle of nowhere and just stare at the simple things in life and not stressing over the things that seem to be out of my control no matter what.

I know that this trip will be the last bit of relaxation for me for a while and I’m grateful that I could make this trip with you  for who knows where time will push us next. 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Colors!