Tag: emotions

Poetry

The end

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Never seemed so sad

but I can’t keep pretending anymore.

I have to let go before I not only  ruin  myself

but I ruin you too.

I don’t want the negative energy that has capture me

turn you against me.

So the best I can do is walk away and know that maybe the life and the people

I thought were suppose to be in it.

Are no longer around.

And maybe the journey on this narrow path was just too small road for all us to walk side by side down together anymore.

The present may just be the end to the things

that seem to be okay left alone but in truth

everything was crumbling and falling apart

right in my front of my face the whole time.

And now the end is so bitter-sweet with no words left to be said

but a lot of tears pouring down my face and nothing but my

own hands to wipe them away.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

HAPPY EASTER!

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Everyone, I hope you all have a great Sunday!

This day is more than Easter baskets and the yummy things inside them.

It’s another day to worship my lord and today is the day he gave his life for me, a sinner and once a lost soul just cruising through life.

I thought I knew who I was supposed to be and what I was to do with my life, but then time slowed down and I became confused on the direction of my life.

Everything I loved and thought was what I needed to do was gone and not even an option anymore.

He guided me to the right place and  everything became clear and I’m where I’m meant to be with the hopes of more to come.

I stop letting my failures or let downs hold me down and I stop trying to be someone I no longer am.

I became someone new and there is no going back and for that I will always be grateful and so today is more than just another holiday or Sunday for me.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

I used to

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think my life would end up on a path so much different from the one I’m on

but I never thought I see  the connection that grew as I aged up turn into dust

and fade away before I had a chance to mend them.

Time sometimes sneaks up on us and when it’s time to think where it all went wrong

it’s too late or the truth is not around anymore.

So you’re lost and so confused on how it all could have went so this way or maybe

you know the times you slowly but surely walked away and just maybe you thought someone would notice your gone.

But, life has a funny way of showing you just how unimportant you are when you are all alone and no one is trying to find out what happened to you.

You want to be bitter and sad and miserable but you still see the good in the world that has started to close its doors on you.

You smile and you don’t let the bad and lonely moments turn you into someone who doesn’t have some hope left in you.

That little hope keeps you going when time gets so tough that breathing seems like the last thing you should care about.

That little hope carries you on for so long that everything in the past doesn’t bother you anymore but you wouldn’t open that door to the things that don’t matter anymore.

You live with the possibility that someone will remember you and that the connections of today and yesterday will continue and not everyone will leave you.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

Detach

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I detach from you and it’s the hardest thing I’ve had to do

for I’ve grown to know you and trust you.

And now I have to forget and move on as if it was all just a nightmare

and I have to wake up and just trust and believe it was not real.

I have to accept that what happened in the past is over and to live in the present

knowing your not apart of it and trusting that I can get through all on my own now.

I was angry at the end and disappointed at the same time but now I don’t remember too much but I haven’t truly forgotten you but I don’t think of you either.

Your present in my life is a thing of the path and I’ve accepted that and have grown to be a little different when it comes to handling things this time around.

I don’t think if I saw you that it would hurt but I’m sure I will recognize you and will not stop to say hello for it is best to just leave it alone.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

I’m true

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to you with my words and my emotions

being poured on this paper today.

Tomorrow will be a new day for me

and hopefully you will join me on this new adventure.

That may take us both away from the one’s we love just

see what the world has out there for us.

For were stuck here and I don’t want to sink into the quicksand

and be gone with nothing worthy to leave behind.

Together this could just be the moment that defines everything for us

but you just have to have faith and take my hand and trust me.

Jump with me and lets not look back to the things that have not been worth looking back on

in the first place.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

Daily Prompt: Vivid

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The intense feeling of that day always makes me feel like it was just yesterday

The words I remember so clearly even when the sound of the rain pouring down outside.

It was a Tuesday and I had just walked through the door with grocery bags in my hands and after putting it all away.

I took a nap only to wake up thirty minutes later with a text from you on my screen, the words still haunt me for I couldn’t begin to believe that they were true.

It was like watching up from a dream and realizing everything you just went through wasn’t just a dream and the end results are not temporary but life lasting.

All you want to do is scream and cry and go back to sleep so this nightmare would end

But,  it doesn’t the day goes on and all that you read is coming more true and as everyone around you is trying to calm you down and be there for you.

And there isn’t a day that goes by that you just can’t forget what happened that day, when you lost such a large part of yourself and, you try everyday to live more and more for them and yourself.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Daily Prompt: Vivid

Poetry

My Wind

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Like  the wind you blew into my life unexpected

You swept me off my feet so fast I feel so light-headed

But, I won’t start complaining for I’ve never smiled so much in my life as I am right now.

Your laugh blows me around and around like the strong wind outside

Your always seem to be giving me the strength I need to get through the storm of the day.

You never seem too tired when it comes to me.

I always have time to listen to the crazy stories of your childhood as we get to know each other.

You never seem to hold it against me when my flaws out shine my strength

You blow away all the bad things that try to take a hold of me.

Sometimes I feel I’m going to wake up and this is just going to be a dream but, it’s not and I feel just so lucky.

You’re the wind below my wings and your blowing me higher and higher everyday that I feel I can accomplish all my dreams sooner than I thought.

 

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

 

Poetry

Daily Prompt: Parlay

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They said being with you was a bet that would end up being the winning of my life.

And at first I just didn’t believe them

even though you were nice to me.

This in life that maybe seem too good turn out to be the worst

So I let my guard stay up as you tried to get closer to me.

Maybe I was just being caution and you didn’t seem to mind

but as time went on I knew my guard wasn’t going to win this battle.

As all the walls fell around me and as vulnerable as I was you protected me

and in the end I won the greatest prize.

Your heart, your smile and the light in your eyes that shined only so bright for me.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Daily Prompt: Parlay

Poetry

I admire you

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I admire the strength you have

Even when you seem not so  sure of yourself.

You embrace the things in life that just  may break someone else

you are stronger than they think.

You  have overcome so much that I just wonder sometime how you could

still be so nice and loving to others, when you feel you are full of darkness.

You smile by day and frown by night

the happiness that seems to be bursting out of you, just disappears when you work out that door and head home for the night.

You enjoy so many things but you feel like you are so wore out that the light is slowly losing the battle as you are too tired to fight off the defects of the darkness.

Will you win this battle with a few scars or lose it with the biggest wound of all?

I guess only time will tell when I see you again.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

 

Poetry

The words

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I love you plays a game of cat and mouse on my lips.

As the words want out but to who am I saying it too.

So much love to give but who wants to receive it.

Time goes by and the words are going stronger.

Yet, no one rushes up to hear the words slip from my mouth.

I love you echoes off the walls trying so hard to find someone to sink it into their heart.

To treasure those three words for a lifetime.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

Used to

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be somebody to you and now I’m just another stranger in the crowd.

I think about all the memories and I’m grateful for them as we drift apart.

I appreciate all the times you were there for me and I was there for you too.

But,  now as we grow up and our friendship grows apart.

I want to say I miss you and sometimes I do but most times life is moving so fast I don’t have time to think of you.

Today I’m stranger but soon enough I won’t even be a memory and that’s when I’ll be erased from your history.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

Anger

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It’s all you got

and even when they tell you to let it go

you just continue to let it grow.

You don’t care about the outcome

You just scream from the top of your lungs

as your heart starts to beat faster and the words just keep pouring out.

When will you stop?

When your all alone and there is no one to hear the words

or will you continue to yell in an empty house.

Eventually, you will go mad and yell all the time walking around and just one wrong

look will get you going and nothing will stop you.

Until one day it will be too much for your heart and it will slowly

start to beat slowly and then it will be over.

And I wonder what will be your last thoughts as the world around you

finally goes dark.

Will you have wished you had got that forgiveness or will you just not even care?

If only you had listened to me when I let anger go for it doesn’t help me grow it only holds one back.

Will you let anger go and live a life with purpose and so much growth or will you end up like the person above with no hope or light at the end of their road.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

It’s a long

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path to travel and yet the words have always been there and as I hear the music come on I know that I’ve run out of time.

It’s now or never for me to just spill it all and as I sit here I’ve just finally feel the feeling of your peace wash over me.

And as I pull up to your place and I jog to your door in the rain, I didn’t care how I may look because I just needed to get it all out.

So I knocked on your door like a crazy women and after five minutes you finally came to the door.

Half a sleep but alert enough to know that whoever was knocking on your door at this time of night better have a good excuse.

You open the door about to speak your mind but when your eyes land on me you don’t say a damn thing.

You just stare and swallow like your so nervous that I’m here and shocked and surprised all at the same time.

And then all I had to say flies right out my mouth as if I’m about to not exist anymore and the last thing.

I said was I love you and I just had to get that off my chest or it would drive me insane.

You look at me with your blue eyes that are so cloudy right now, with so many emotions running around inside of you.

Then it all just settles and a look of relieve falls on your face and you smile and you say, “It’s about time you come to your senses and get in here before you catch a cold and, I love you too.”

Ending that long path with a happy ending with so many great beginnings too.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

Losing you

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with every touch, with every word left unspoken.

The empty stares shared between us are not helping this feeling of losing something so great.

That everyday the feeling of it ending is deafening.

I keep wondering who would I be without you pulling me out of my darkest hole.

What will I do without you?

Our time spent together was so great just to end so messy and nothing but anger from both ends.

Tears falling so fast down my face, your face.

To the final goodbye ending with the hug that will always haunt my memories of you.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

Joyful

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Thinking about you brings so much joy to me that I wonder is something really happening between us, as I look deeply into your eyes I begin to see it all play out in front of me.

As I hear the beating of my heart match the beating of your heart, I realize we only have this time together.

Before life rips us apart and our time split in so many ways it will be a miracle if we see each other again.

But, even apart my thoughts always lead back to you and when time gives me a break I’m there for you and I always lose track of time after that.

But, I know no second or minute, or hour is wasted when it’s spent on helping you.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes