Tag: Thinking

My thoughts

I’ve been thinking

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What makes us lack confidence and bring down our self-belief to the point we no longer take risks or have leaps of faith when a great opportunity comes into our lives?

Did something happen to lower our confidence, and are we still holding on to past trauma?

And how do we overcome it?

Would meditation help?

How about journaling our moods daily and how we’re feeling help?

Or maybe expressing ourselves through poetry brings out those vulnerable moments and finally sets us free?

Or is it something we have to seek help for?

What do you do when you lack confidence but have the drive to say I want more, and I know I can’t get it if I don’t have the confidence or the self-belief that I’m good enough to do it?

All these questions keep running through my mind as I step into a new me, but I am still trying to shake my old thought process.

You won’t know how good you are until you do the thing you’re hesitating about, for the first step is just the beginning.

I used to lack so much confidence and self-belief that I relied on others to Validate who I am and what I stand for. But then I worked with a coach who broke down every wall I put up in my life and I found my voice and my inner child and adult self wanting to break out and voice their opinions and show the world they matter and that they are here to stay.

I know my journey isn’t over, and I still sometimes want to hide or stop when things get hard, but I know I’m meant to do more and help others, too.

I would love to know how you ladies or gentlemen handle lacking confidence or self-belief. Or if you would like to answer any of the many questions above?

I’m currently doing meditation to center myself and enhance my creativity, and I’m journaling, praying, and taking baby steps to complete the goals I set for this year.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes Copyrighted ©️ 2023 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

To tell

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you the truth, I want to reach out to you but every time I start to write something to you

something stops me and I quickly let you slip away from my mind.

And maybe it’s for the best but, lately you have been on my mind and I just want to say hi and maybe soothing else.

But, maybe it’s best that I stay away for right now my emotions are all over the place and I don’t want to say something I know I shouldn’t but I want to say it so bad.

If only I didn’t know how this would end and I could just let the words flow from me and not care where they fall and just accept the outcome.

It’s tearing me apart to not say the words but, at the same time I feel like if I make a move it will be the wrong thing and the outcome won’t be good.

Right now I need to do what’s best for me and try real hard to let it go and let the words slip away from my mind and move forward knowing that I made the right move.

 

 

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

 

 

 

Poetry

Daily Prompt: Moon

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Oh Moon you float up there all alone

shining so brightly down on me every night.

You standout from everything at night and sometimes I’ll stare up at you as the little stars blink around you.

And I wonder how many don’t think of you as you shine at night.

Hoping to some like kids interest of the month or year.

But you want to be noticed for your unique as you go through cycles every now and then.

Moon I wonder how many will be inspired to write about you today and, how happy that will make you feel.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

https://dailypost.wordpress.com/prompts/moon/

 

Poetry

Life

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How many cries for help do we miss and if someone even says cries for help do we wonder if their hinting at something.

How many people do we have to say we know to realize none of them are around when you’re at your lowest moment.

Are they knocking down walls to get to you or even giving you a call when you attempt to reach out to them.

Or are you the one months from now they wonder about.

How many will still be waiting a month from now?

Will it be too late?

Will the words ever register that there was a warning or will the signs continue to go unnoticed.

And how do we see these signs before it’s too late, some are known and some come out of no where.

But is there hope you will notice soon enough or do we get to busy to worry about others for a length of time.

 

Written: Deirdre Stokes

#MayBook Prompt

Warm bodies who are you?

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Warm bodies cuddle together on a cold night

Warm bodies try to brave the heat

Of the sun shining down on them.

Warm bodies work hard to make a living

To be inspired, to create something new.

Everyday they get up and walk up the hill

And fall on their knees to see what life has for

Them on the other side.

These warm bodies are called human beings and

They have so many names.

They grow up trying to be more than someone would

Say they could be, for they wanted to be  better, stronger, wiser.

Only to end up in place a little better than before they went

Off and dreamed about the life  that seemed so possible if

They just believed in more than what they can see.

These warm bodies enjoy many things and they really just want

The things in life that are meaningful, and a place to call home.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

For the #May Book Prompts-Warm Bodies

Poetry

Blur

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I’m cruising on autopilot

don’t ask me what I see

It’s all just a blur in front and around me.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

 

Poetry

Bottled up inside

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I didn’t think this through,for if I did I wouldn’t be feeling so down

nothing seems to make sense.

And it’s all bubbling up inside, the emotions waiting to spill over

like a volcano it’s ready to explode.

Sending every emotion up at once and there is no stopping it.

It’s too late to run from all the things that have been bottled inside

even if  you could escape.

You would have to pick what your running from, your anger or your sadness

your happiness or your peace.

Your passion that pours into your dreams and goals or your fears that hold you back from letting anything come true.

Or seem real, are you going to make the choice to keep it all inside or let it all out one at a time.

So that the possibility of ending up with your peaceful happiness that burns.

Bright from the passion that pours from you and your anger and sadness won’t matter anymore for you will be living the life you always wanted.

Without the fear of doing nothing is better than doing something and failing at it.

Life is to short to keep it all bottled up inside, let it out to explore the possibilities of creating something different.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

 

Poetry

Oh,How I wait for this shell to be broken!

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I need to be just who I am, and maybe I don’t know who that is just yet.

I walk through this life with many emotions playing around in my head.

I try to be as strong as I can be and maybe that’s why not many people.

 See how bright I can shine for I hide it all, in this shell that is hard to break.

Maybe I’m just hoping someone will keep coming back to break the shell

And not just accept what I offer at the edge of the true me.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

 

 

Poetry

Thoughts

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To wake up in the morning and feel like there is nothing on my mind, but

How will I go about my day and end up feeling like, I’ve accomplish something

Or did I do what I said I was going to do. Or did I let someone down for I backed out of being there for them.

Up and down my thoughts go as I try to think about my life and the decisions I’ve been making out of fear of losing it all.

Get out of my head for I don’t want to think of the memories of you. Did you not

Hear me when I tried to tell you what was going on but you just kept over

Talking me and in the end you didn’t hear what I had to say.

So now it’s still bubbling inside me, running around in circles until I find someone to listen to me and all theses thoughts can be release and I can think clearly again.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

Did you ever care for me?

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So naive to think they cared for me like the snow of winter I have been melted away from their life.
Soon forgotten as the warm weather blows in.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

Letting Go

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I have to let you go, this is not fair to you.

You put so much into this Friendship.

It feels so wrong to end it as you sail away, with tears quickly washing down your face.

As the boat pulls away leaving me all alone and I can no longer see you, and the sadness I gave you.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

Trying to figure it out!

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It’s dark outside and all I can think of is will you come rescue me.

I don’t want to be alone, I don’t want to wake up feeling scared.

I want to feel protected and hopeful and wrapped up in your arms.

I’m hopeless romantic and I know that for now it’s only just another movie.

Life doesn’t work that way and things don’t just happen like that.

Maybe you fall for the wrong person but the right guy doesn’t just happen to be at your next getaway vocation.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

The cure!

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I thought I knew everything about what I would need to be happy, to not feel sad anymore.

But maybe I was wrong about what would be the cure for me.

As I wander through it all like stacks of paper that explain every moment of my life,

going through the moments I thought I wouldn’t be able to handle.

Until I get to the moment of today, and I realize that nothing seems to be the same because I’m not the same.

I know you want to try to get to the bottom of what makes me sad and I’ve tried to explain it to you as best as I can and maybe just maybe you will get it.

And maybe I will feel okay for at least I’m not alone on this journey of figuring out myself and maybe I’ll find my cure one day but for now I’m just happy to know.

I’m all I need to be happy for myself and I’m the strongest solider following my leader God and maybe one day I will have defeated all that makes me sad.

And that is all the hope I need to be okay today.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

 

 

Poetry

Just another snow day!

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My heart is beating so fast and I feel so alive as I stand in the snow and spin in circles.

With no care in the world, for this little bit of peace as the world fades and I become one with the cold.

My problems no longer matter as the snow turns me into a brand new me.

Why won’t you come out and experience this moment with me, I know it’s cold but the warmth flowing through me is enough for us both.

You smile but stay inside for you enjoy seeing me being carefree and then you snap the picture and I’m forever saved in your mind that day.

You still look at that picture now as I’ve become someone you used to know.

Like the snow I too was clear but now I’m so hard to see behind all the layers of dirt.

Covering up who I used to be before everyone walked over me or pushed me to the side for I was in their way.

 

Written By:Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

My life line!

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My mind and hand are craving you as I am drawn to you, I realize I don’t know what to do.

But I walk up the stairs to get you, hoping something great will come out when I walk back down those stairs and open you up.

To a blank piece of paper and I slowly begin to write down, what’s locked up in my mind.

I need an solution to all that I believe I was meant to be and finally do something about it.

Only time will tell what will become of my words that I pour out of myself everyday, every second, minute, hour, week, month, and year.

Writing to me is just one of the many points of my life line.

It makes me happy and it helps me to get it all out.

Sometimes I can go without it but it will always find a place in my life and will continue to grow.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes